So day 12 of this thing. No fapping, porn and started to not even fantasize about sex. Did this thing rather spontaneously one day after briefly reading it and have researched it a bit more. After reading that "your brain on porn" site, i became a little concerned. I recently realised that my porn use has been increasingly sharply for the past couple of years and have randomly gone soft a number of times whilst jerking off and have noticed that my erections didn't point upwards. I'd do it a number of times a day and i'd usually have loads of tabs up and shit and some scenes didn't arouse me. I haven't gone extreme, i dont even watch lesbo. I've also noticed that i had the opportunity to take girls home a few times, but i didn't do it and made an excuse. "I wasn't that into her" or i made up an excuse that she was a tease or i didn't want to or she wasn't interested despite making out for an hour even though we didn't even know each others names. I just left her because i was scared of sleeping with her. I started to feel that i could only lose it with someone who i was in a relationship with.

I've never gotten to the point of sleeping with girls, so i can't tell for sure if i have porn-induced ed (without breaking my streak). However i have realised that i have increased social anxiety, symptons of depression and a fear of women in the past couple of years or so. I remember being in clubs and almost thinking that i was asexual at my lack of desire to get with anyone. I was wondering if anyone else in the community has ever had the same problem or if this is kind of common. It's almost as if i don't want to talk to girls, because i'm scared of sleeping with them. I realised this just as i was ready to go into game. Now i'm not so sure. Is this common? Will this sort of fear and anxiety go away if i just approach? Is it really necessary to do this 120 days no fap/porn/orgasm or have past puas overcome this by just committing to game.

This has become a problem for me, because in having discovered this, i now have much increased anxiety. I'm off to uni in a month and fresher's was an oppotunity i was looking forward to. Now i can't partake in any fun for the entire first semester, which is supposed to be the sex-fest of all sex-fests for students. No orgasms for 120 days, not to mention flat-lines, which i'm already starting to experience with a drop in libido and a weakening and decreased frequency of erections, including morning wood.

Any advice from more experienced puas for this newb in need.