Hey guys!
My name is Justin and im quite new to this whole PUA thing. I read through a lot of threats and books and stuff but right now i need some serious help. Im stuck in a bad situation and i really hope you guys can give me some advice...
Well here is my situation: Several month ago i fell in love with this beautiful girl at work... She is no model or super hot bitch, just a normal 21 year old girl. I have no idea how it happened but i really really do love her and i dont want any other girl. Well... After a lot of thinking i wrote her this love letter. I wrote her all my deep feelings. The thing is, back then she didnt even know me. I mean...not very good. She knew my name and where i work. Today i know that it certainly was not the best idea, to write her this letter, but she gave me a chance!... Of course she was very confused to get a love letter from me! But i tried to get her attention and to get to know her.First we started texting, then we started "dating" and we always had a great time. This whole texting and dating thing is now lasting for about 7 months...And during that time i told her several times that i STILL have those feelings for her and she knew it all the time, that i dont want to be just a friend and that im doing all this just for her and that i want to be her boyfriend. I know almost everything about her and she knows everything about me. We trust each other! Well anyways...The last 3 dates were...really intense i would say. We talked a lot, we touched a lot, every time we talked we were together like really really close. But im honest... I never tried to kiss her or anything. Even though it always seemed like she was waiting for a kiss...And i wanted it too.
Anyways... It felt so good and so right. I was so sure that we are going to be a couple soon.
Well...thats what i thought!... 2 days ago i asked her: " Hey, we are always rexting these kiss smilies ( :-* ) when will you finally give me one of these in real life"
Her answer was: " I thought we where just friends for now"
I was really shocked and one day later we talked about the situation. I said that i am not feeling like we are just friends. And that we should go one step further now. But she said that she really really likes me and she does not want to lose me but her feelings are not strong enaugh for a relationship YET! She said that her feelings might change but she obviously couldnt promise anything. I asked if it would make any sense to keep on hoping and to keep on doing things for and with her. To change her feelings. She had not a real answer for that question (obviously) . But later on she said "maybe everything isnt as bad as you might think"
She also asked me about the kissing thing. Like: "why did you send me a message?" She said "why didnt you just kiss me? I would have been a bit confused if you did, but i would not have rejected you".
After a lot of talking we agreed to keep on doing what be were doing all the time. Texting every day, spending time together and talk to each other just like normal.
I really dont know what to do now... Of course i was really hurt and i know that she never wanted to hurt me that way. But on the other hand i DO KNOW what we had and what we did and that she has or at least HAD feelings for me too. I think she doesnt know what to do either.What would you do ? She is my dreamgirl and i want her so bad... I hope my text is understandable for you guys. Im from Germany so beare with me