Greetings, whoever is capable of helping me out of this mental state is going to receive my thanks for a lifetime. I'm 21 years, I live in Belgium, been studying PUA for a good year now and I've had alot of succes... However.
I'm currently undergoing another meltdown so to speak, I've given up on things and I feel that my ''sanity'' is slowly fading away, I'm spending my time playing games again and I'm not really progressing.
I dont know if it's me, or if it's the place I live in. The biggest issue that I've found out here is that there's hardly any motivation to be found. I live in Belgium at a very boring place, there's a shopping mall, 2 decent clubs that are still 40 miles away and a few random clubs that blow. I'm someone who needs a challenge and people around me that have a wide view over life. People here are stuck in their own little world and socialising is not as easy either. I can enjoy a night out with my friends for a few weeks, but it gets boring after a while, I dont wanna meet girls because I've been PUA'ing for 6 months now, with alot of succes. The issue? The girls here are just plain annoying. There's nothing in them but whiny little bitches.
I'm not saying this because of some kind of hate or that I've been rejected, it's because the more I talk to them, the more I realise I dont belong here.
People live by the lowest standards possible, they hardly do anything excited. They always wanna get drunk or do drugs and nothing more. They lack confidence and will so most of the time I spent with them is mental-coaching them the best possible way (One got a model-career out of my help).
I recently started going to college aswell, I was thrilled at first and couldn't be more motivated. It was at this time that my PUA skills were at best because my state was mindblowing. I had sex with 1 girl from class and # closed about 10 others, could've K-closed a third but told her not to because she had a BF.
My college started off well as everyone respected me ALOT.
Afterwards I slowly started realising the same issue as my mates, there just wasn't any person out there who I could consider a worthy friend. I honestly cant stand people that dont think outside the box, or know what they want in life. They just party/party/party with nothing more to look forward too. Heck, 70% of them either wants to grab a drink or stays at home watching a movie.
The worst part of all is that I finally met a girl that I considered to be worthy, I met her randomly, spoke to her for a good few days on facebook and finally managed to go out with on a day 2. She really surprised me and We had an amazing time. I sadly ruined this since I was in such a mental state from the events that happend ever, that I just didn't care anymore.. I regret this so much as everything between us changed and I haven't spoken to her for a good week.
When I planned us a second date, she agreed to go, and told me she'll check her schedule that night, I never heard from her before and I kinda left it there.
Every combined is just really taking it's toll on me and I'm slowly falling back to old habits that ruined me for a good 2.5 years, and I honestly dont wanna go through it again.
My motivation comes from people, I love socialising and everything, but there's nobody here that I really wanna befriend. >.>
What do You think is a possibility to stay sharp without relying on things so heavily?
Thanks for reading, I'm usually a very positive person, I prefer to be helping others but I sadly am just in a very very annoying situation...
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