@pronto:
this comes from my heart bro' trust me,i've been where you're now.
"There are times in your life where you... just hope that the future will be better. "
when you'll get your way with things on a daily basis,you wont think like that..this is not a healthy thinking,think like a man who succeeds in everything,he wont 'hope' for the best..he'll go and get it,because he's successful and he KNOW he'll get is way,adapt to this kind of thinkin',this 'state of mind' bro' ...fake it till' you make it,seriously."As I'm sitting in my bed, I wonder,
I wonder if there is one person,
One person that wakes up and thinks:
'This is what I want.' "
at times..yes,but no one is constantly feeling like that,impossible."How can women have such an impact on a man's life? "
may i suggest you learn some basic evolutionary psychology?males/females are programed to do two things:
1.survive
2.replicate
that's just our way to guarantee our genes will not weed out of exsistence,our way to leave something in this world,it's sub-conscious..you cant controll that,hence:the importance of womans in one's life.
all others things in life are just an "add on"..they are conscious and are not hardwired in our head,we're just used to them.
"You are cool, you are wanted, you are loved... "
indeed..we humans 'co-exsist'..when we are surrounded by people(mainly high value ppl,becasue we ARE a bit of a solipsistic race unfortunately),we can truly feel happiness."I have been reading PUA material for a year. Approached a few. Closed none. "
you can do better man..just by saying "hey" with a smile to every woman you see walking and seems cool to you..a simple AA resolve."I just lost all my friends, why? I don't know. Suddenly they just don't want you anymore. "
no,you didnt,you just discovered that they never were there with you."I work out a lot, play sports, feel handsome. Start a new life, get all the girls there are, get all the value there is. "
seriously bro'..you're living better then ME 
"I regret so many times in my life where I should've used more balls."
so stop living like that..as of...........NOW! by the way,have you seen the movie "fight club"?..see it,now.
"I am even regretting this moment for writing this down, but it takes half a ball to write it."
dont,i love you for writing this,you reminded me how much i improved in my life..besides,trying to help you makes me feel better about myself 
"Some moments in life you just want to clear your mind of everything.
And then, deep inside, maybe even subconsiously... "
tastify O' my brother! to the truth that i preach!seriously though,we're all allowed to dream sometime..right?
"...you still want that feeling of love."
i love you bro'..no homo.conclusion:in order to be truly happy in life,you must first understand them,see them for what they are...i hoped i helped you man,pm me OR reply if you have questions or even if you just want to talk.
PS:i truly recommend you learn some basic evolutionary psychology and sociology..mystry have some good advice.
and,watch fight club..really.