I know it’s hard to read blocks of writing so I’ll try simplify this
► I started speaking to this girl, we talked a lot and she’d often come to my friend’s house (he had house parties quite a lot)
► She was “seeing” this guy at the time, who is the same age as me. Although even though she was seeing him we kissed 2 or 3 times at these house parties.
► We became very close, she told me a lot of thing she hadn’t even told her closest friends or her boyfriend. (At this stage I began to think I had been friendzoned but it turns out I hadn’t really later on)
► She tells me how her and her boyfriend fall out all the time and don’t get on most of the time. At a party she starts dancing with me and grinding against me whilst her boyfriend is there.
► Weeks go past and we keep talking and meeting up, going for walks etc. However sometimes she would blank me or ignore my texts at certain times, but at other times she was completely fine.
► Recently at a party she seemed in a strange mood (her boyfriend was at the party aswell and she doesn’t like her being around me because of how close we’ve been but he doesn’t know we’ve kissed or anything like that).
► We’re both drunk and at home after the party and I phone her, we’re both pretty p*ssed off with each other and start saying thing like how we seemed to be leading each other on etc. (I’m not sure how much of what we said that we actually meant). Anyway I confess that I like her but I know she has a boyfriend so it’s obviously not gonna work.
►We don’t talk at all the whole next day until about 11:30 at night when she phones me.
►On the phone we’re talking about where we go from here after what’s been said. She is pretty upset on the phone and confesses she has feeling for me but also still loves her boyfriend aswell.
► I tell her maybe it’s best if we don’t speak from now on because all it has created so far is drama for us both. She says she doesn’t want to lose me because she genuinely really likes me and has feelings for me but doesn’t know what to do because she has a boyfriend.
We’re in a really weird situation right now. She’s coming to my friends Party on Saturday and there’s going to be quite a lot of people there including people I’ve hooked up with before. Truth is though, I really like this girl A LOT.
What should I do from here? :/