Hey guys
So I recently started doing The Rules of The Game CHALLENGES
cause I'm still floundering with my AA and I need some guidance and whatnot,
and one of my challenges I had to do for the day was to talk
to 5 random strangers so I can move on to the next
mission. What hit me next was like, so sad for me
but at the same time it was such a huge
awakening for me. Let me explain...
I went to the mall today to go approach
and talk to 5 random people for
a brief interaction (I prefer
girls over any other to start
conversation, just preference) and after
approaching 4 attractive women, I
accidently wandered and landed up
in a perfume and clothing megastore
inside the mall haha
Anyway, while I was trying to
find my way out, I saw, this
BEAUTIFUL girl...right
there by the counter,
by some GHD's. Picture
this: Ginger, with
perfect flowing hair, piercing
blue eyes,
perfect skin, 4 freckles on
her cheek, the figure of a supermodel
and a face with a smile like an angel. My first reaction was
"WOW. She is...oh my god.WOW" I knew I couldn't
miss this chance to talk to her to her so I approached
her with a directional opener (Coffee Shop) and
this is what followed.
Me:- "Hey, sorry to bother you, do you know where the Mugg and Bean is?"
Girl:-"Yeah, hang on...umm...(bites her lip). You go straight up this escalator here..."
Me:-"Yeah."
Girl:-"After that you turn right, go left, go...ummm"
Me:-"Yes..."
Girl:-"Haha I'm sorry I'm also a little lost!"
Me:-"Really? Is it up here and..."
Girl:-"Haha, I'll take you there"
Me:-"Great."
(As I'm following her this dude passing me then looks at me like he's thinking
"HOW DID HE DO THAT...??" with this facial expression
It was pretty funny, made me feel a little alpha lol. So i'm following this girl and she takesme to the escalator)
Girl:-"K so from here (beaming smile) you go up, take the
first right and then its on your left"
Me:-"Up and on the right to the left, right?"
Girl:-"Uhm...
"Me:-"Just checking"
Girl:-"Haha yeah
"(So from here I'm getting on the mechanical stairs and this girl
is literally, beaming, I can tell she's smiling because I've
just been able to talk to her for this short amount of
time, I can tell I've made her day. I even know that she wants
me to do or say something that will take the interaction
further...I want to do exactly that. But what happens
next crushes both of our hopes. I say...)
Me:-"Thanks alot. Bye!"
As I'm going up the escalator I see the girl is still standing there,
seeing me up as I go along towards my destination, she's
still smiling directly at me, she see's
me all the way up the top until I step off and move. As soon
as I get off, it hit me...I had just met an amazing girl,
literally everything I could want and...there was
absolutely no way I could ever have her.
My AA, this thing, this fear thats holding
me back, just caused me to lose
an opportunity to get to know an amazing
girl, and no matter how
much I think about it
now, no matter
how many times I replay that brief
interaction over and over in my head thinking
of what could have been, I can never have
that kind of girl unless I break free of the
fear.
It's only a matter of time until I finally get
this right, (I can feel myself getting more
confident everyday because I'm doing
the challenges right and approaching
accordingly), but how many more
of these opportunities...these girls...
how many more amazing girls must I
allow to slip through my fingers
until I finally reach that point
where I can approach and attract
anyone I want?
It's scary yet amazing at the same time. On the one
hand, I've approached an amazingly attractive girl
with no problem, but on the other hand,
I had to let her go because I'm just not at that stage
in my game to go forward and make things happen.
It's harsh knowing that I may never see her again,
and if I do...will I be ready to get her?