This is me complaining
Im seriously starting to lose faith in women, why?
After the breakup with my ex the vision I had about girls changed to worst. She was my world yes, I ignore all the advices some of the guys gave it to me at time, and still acted as AFC, because that what my brain telling me she was helpless little girl, I BLAME DISNEY MOVIES , that princess and leaving happy ever after.
No matter almost a year passed, cut contact, I still think of her, but its more like a scar.
So I study a lot about psychology of women, hoping I would understand what goes on.
After the breakup I meet new interesting people, closed a few. I kind of tried the life of PUA. But to be honest I’m bit disappoint.
I came to a conclusion, girl are self centered, manipulate to a degree that doesn’t deserve our respect. I see a lot of my friends putting girls on pedestal, and I kinda laugh, See guys in relationships acting as Afc, meaning caring and being a good boyfriend, some girls treat them like carpets, humiliate, flirting with other guys, and manipulate them to get what them want. this is not fair.
When I was meeting all those girls I game played with them, and after I had there “attention” I would leave, I see she is like all the rest… my motivation just gone, but I would take satisfaction leaving the girl, she would feel silly for not understanding why I would ditch, when I Cleary was attracted .
Even left this crazy HB, when we were going to kiss, to go talk to other girls I was happy for leaving this bitch. My friends told me that she kind of sat on the bar and didn’t do anything else, and left very angry, this for no reason, gives me sense of joy. And yes I was really attracted when she was giving up a fight.
So one night stand for me is not option, I tried, and for some reason I felt really bad after we had sex, like a void, felt really empty for having sex with a girl that I didn’t knew so well, and who would open her legs for a stranger, and after few nights telling im the man of there dreams. THIS IS MANIPULATION AS ITS BEST, my attitude of not giving a fuck was getting to her so she had to penetrate with anything so they say this so you go softy, damn predator at there best then weaken us before they strike .
I would like to find a girlfriend true, since I don’t think having girls only for occasions would work , but I cant see a girl fulfing my requirements after so much of what ive seen made me doubt girls . Are you seeing the problem? So this is making me isolate from the feminine world.
Sorry for rant.
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