I saw her today. And I sat down and talked to her for less than a minute before she left with her cockblock of a friend. She looked like she was in a hurry. I couldn't tell if that was actually the case or if I did something to turn her off. I was probably sub-communicating being needy in some way I was not aware of. Probably leaned forward too much, etc.

Came home feeling like shit. Well, for a bit anyways. Good thing I have some hobbies that aren't lame and depressing. So I took out my guitar and played some random riffs to try to get my mind off it. Then I realized something. I lost my alpha frame. I didn't approach her with the mentality that I was the prize. She was definitely attracted before. I somehow killed it by being too needy and also being too afraid to touch that other time I talked to her when the cockblock was away and I was standing a feet away from her. What's the best way to recover from this? A freeze out or hitting on another girl in class won't work if she doesn't give a shit about me. I know this is asking for one-itis advice, something frowned upon in this forum. But I see her many times a week in class. Sitting in class and staring at her knowing I fucked up...hurts.

Then I realized something else. A bitter reality check. This girl, who I dreamed about and lost sleep over (believe me I know how ridiculous this sounds =p) probably doesn't give a flying fuck about me. Then why should I give a flying fuck about her? It makes me angry how much I think about her. I want to stop. I know it's logical to stop. I even replied in another thread that the best way to deal with a shitty day is to move on and look forward to tomorrow. But...I...just...can't. Part of me wants to do something stupid to deliberately get shot down so I don't have to think about or talk to her again, cause of all the pain I'm putting myself through thinking of her. The other part of me is telling me to keep my head up and keep on trying until I get shot down.

You're telling me to go out and meet other women. I've done that. Like I said before, I just haven't met a girl of the same "caliber". A 9 is going to take up a much larger portion of my brain capacity than a 6 or 7. I gotta study all weekend anyways since I've done no studying this week, so I probably won't be meeting many women. I'm kind of hoping you have some secret mind trick that's gonna help me get through this.