Hey there, I'm in a state of limbo here, and I was hoping some of you kind souls out there could assist me with this.
So, there is this girl in Australia I know, who has a boyfriend way over in Canada. She is one of my best friends here, and we spend a lot of time together just talking for hours - up to 10 hours at a time even - and we never get sick of each other's company. Conversation is easy, personalities gel, and there is that special 'spark' between us; a sexual tension and, if I must admit, a deeply emotional connection.
But, anyway, she's leaving for Canada in a week to reunite with the boyfriend whom she has been away from for close to 10 months now. Which sucks about as hard as a hungry baby on its mother's nipples. Sucks till it feels numb.
But just a week or so ago, she wrote me a message, confessing her 'hidden' infatuation for me. It ran along the lines of "I will never admit this to you in person, and I will only dare to say this once, but over the period we have known each other, I have developed affectionate feelings for you. But... as things are.. maybe in another life. I love everything about you and you are the best friend I ever had".
Now, this threw me into a mind-loop, propelled me into a different orbit since I too have had feelings for her for quite a while too, clearly. But... with a week left before she leaves Australia, I do not know exactly what I want to do. And I need help, desperately!
I've reached a point where I have passively accepted that she will go to Canada no matter what I do at this point in time, but I would like to 'inject' a little doubt into the quality of the relationship she has with her boyfriend (She has expressed how she finds him to be a little over-reliant on her for his sense of purpose in life). I want her to think of the quality of the conversations we've had when she is speaking to him. To remember me in instances where she feels she needs someone to understand her, listen to her, and enjoy in her company. In other words, I want her to want me when she is over there. As it is, she is staying about an hour and a half away, but oftentimes visits me just to spend extended time together.
I guess my question here is: how do I go about expressing these things to her before she leaves? How do I inject this wanting in her to come back to Australia to be with me? How do I put the thought into her to give the brewing emotionalism between us a chance to become something a little more real?
Would greatly value any advice / direction from anyone here!
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