Ok let me keep this as short as possible so that you guys don get bored. I am an Indian guy and for the past three months I v been hanging out almost every weekend with a French chick, lets call her X. In between her friends were here in India for a vacation and I kinda connected with one of her friends but she left too early for me to be able to do anything.. Lets call this friend Y (I guess I was just reaping the benefits of being able to speak some French
). Anyways I had actually chikened out on kissing this chick X loong back and I had texted her asking if she wanted to kiss me or not around 3 months back.. She replied back saying she is still in love with her ex and did not want to hurt me... So I just let it go but she kept calling me every weekend just to go drink and party in general. Then one night while we were drinking we both spoke about our sexcapades in general and she told me she was involved in a gangbang with 5 guys and I told her about my 5some with some whores and friends lol ! She had even spoken about how sex is normal for her and love is more crazy.. I always used to sleep over with her on her bed whenever we got back late from our parties but we never did anything cause the first time she let me sleep on the same bed, I told her it was odd for me to sleep on the same bed without doing anything and she insisted it was normal for her to sleep with guys without any action and maybe its just Indian guys who get ideas. So I just stayed cool and din jump her. But lately after all the sex talk I just felt maybe she wants to fuck. So I texted her again asking if she had any feelings now and she insited she just wanted to be friends. So I texted her "how about we just become friends with benefits then lol". And she just replied "lol you are crazy".. Anyways after this chat one of her friends had texted me and another buddy of mine on FB about some stuff and I did not notice her friend in the loop and texted back thinking it was just my friend in the chat saying " doesnt look like I can get into X's pants cause she just wants to be friends anyways fk it she aint worth it but her hotty friend Y was
" So her friend obviously told her this and so X texted me back saying never to contact her !! That night I went to meet her in person and apologize and I told her I was high on weed and did not know what I was saying. Plus I was kinda feeling bad that she did not have feelings for me. She insisted that just because she lets me sleep in her bed and hangs out with me doesnt mean she has feelings for me. She was also saying that me asking her just to be friends with benefits shows I just want to use her as garbage and throw her away. I told her I sent all those text when I was out of my mind and that I still have feelings for her and maybe I just read her signals wrongly and told her to give me some time and that I will contact her back when im alright !! For now I have disconnected all contacts with her but this looks like a lost cause. I dont want to be like her gf with whom she can share everytime she makes out or fucks a guy !! For the love of god can someone tell me if I should continue seeing her normally or if I shud just cut contact and wait for her to get int touch?! She might not given that I told her I would be contacting her... Any ideas , suggestions from you pros would be helpful ! Thanks...
Fk that shit I cant take it I dont wanna be no girlfriend to these bitches lol... The key is to keep ourselves as the prized possession.. I need to look at this and turn the tables that she missed out on a good fuck from me which she could have remembered for the rest of her life haha..tht be. On another note I might be heading to Bangkok for a fuck cause I feel the fact that I havent fucked for 2 years is messing with my cool attitude towards chicks and I am just trying to look for love in places where they dont exist ! 