I turn 30 this year and spent most off my teenager and 20ies in long or medium long term relationships (min a year, max 8y!!!) One almost right after the other.
Now since a year i have been living life my way! my choices, my road, my dreams. I decided not to step into a new relationship for a minimum off 3 to 5 years. And i am not diverting from this road since in almost every way this decision has greatly improved my life and happyness!
Last thing i need as a relationship.... NO WAY
BUTjavascript:emoticon('8)') i have met an amazing woman! We have texted for 2 weeks since my sister thought this would make a great wild friendship...
After spending an afternoon at a bbq we ended up having an extreme phyisical attraction under a perfect nightsky! it felt amazing both ways. i am absolutely sure. even tho she pulled every trick she had i to fuck me ! i stuck it out and didn't !
the day after we spent all day in my bed talking on a verry intimate level, on the exception off my boxers and her string we were naked and enjoyed eachothers physical attention. Again both ways! NO DOUBT !
We agreed not to see eachother regulary to make sure we would end up in a short fling ! (she feels the same way as me about relationships for the same reasons !!!!)
yet we saw eachother anyway and spend 4 hours at a lakeside. The comfort and trust was MINDBLOWING !!!! the comfort connection both ways is almost unbelievable!
on a sexual level I actually suggested not to go sexual because this feels to good to fuck up! We both see sex as a risk, or atleast says she does!
Due to the emotional connection we cant fully control ourselves. Not showing (for ex we stopped kissing) affection is impossible... and i actually enjoy it almost more then sex with many other women.
Now i want to keep this girl in my life. She gets me!
yet i know iff i starts feeling like a relationship its FUBAR in less then two months.
how do i handel this. iff i have to choose i rather have her as an amazing friend yet i really want something more..... i dont know iff this is even possible.....
Now clearly i am a verry emotional guy so i am looking for a way to control my own and preferably also her emotions as much as possible so this becomes verry long term.
