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PostPosted: Wed Jun 25, 2014 12:47 pm 
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Since being part of PUA's amazing world, my life has changed from being a introverted person to someone very outspoken and usually very outgoing. But with this change, I've become more fearless, and also more reckless. Last time I would avoid a fight at all costs but now, I don't back off. It's good for most situations but it takes one punch to ruin a life. And now, I'm fueled by inner rage like an inner tiger is running through my blood. I feel so violent and it could be the testosterone but every aspect of me changes from reserved to carnal. Approaches intensifies, Kino is fucking off the roof and breathing deepens. I feel like Approaching HBs left and right and Banging them to ease the tension. Its ok when socialising but I work deep into the night at times and theres no HBs to approach. I don't like to restrict myself, become exclusive and have one GF but fuck, how do I solve this? Its so primal

And worst of all its some sick sadomasochistic ideal that I fucking love. I love-and-hate this state


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PostPosted: Thu Jun 26, 2014 10:00 pm 
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PostPosted: Fri Jul 04, 2014 5:30 pm 
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Talk to a therapist.


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PostPosted: Fri Jul 04, 2014 11:48 pm 
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theirs no straight answer but your not gonna like this one: your gonna have to work on back tracking

you sound mid 20's or older which means youve prolly been introverted for most of your life, suddenly you see a change in your self as well as a universe and its giving you alot of fuel power, its a drug like any other. it feels so great but then after awhile you feel its taking control of you and you cant stop, cutting it off completely makes you go through withdrawels.

if sarging and the need to talk to hb's is soooo strong then back track, not completely but just a little. start giving execuses for leaving the conversation early. eject for no reason. start being overly picky, or try moving that anger onto another subject like boxing or such.

it kinda sounds like your taking all this built up introverted fustration you have had over the years and letting it all out on the girl so your adrenaline kicks into on super high.

you need to either refocus your anger on something else or cut it back slowly.


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PostPosted: Wed Jul 30, 2014 2:47 am 
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Since being part of PUA's amazing world, my life has changed from being a introverted person to someone very outspoken and usually very outgoing. But with this change, I've become more fearless, and also more reckless. Last time I would avoid a fight at all costs but now, I don't back off. It's good for most situations but it takes one punch to ruin a life. And now, I'm fueled by inner rage like an inner tiger is running through my blood. I feel so violent and it could be the testosterone but every aspect of me changes from reserved to carnal. Approaches intensifies, Kino is fucking off the roof and breathing deepens. I feel like Approaching HBs left and right and Banging them to ease the tension. Its ok when socialising but I work deep into the night at times and theres no HBs to approach. I don't like to restrict myself, become exclusive and have one GF but fuck, how do I solve this? Its so primal

And worst of all its some sick sadomasochistic ideal that I fucking love. I love-and-hate this state

you're spinning out of control because you've obtained all of this power after being stuck in your shell forever. you're finally unleashing all of the energy you've been holding in. You're skilled at game but it's time to really get in touch with your inner game and work on your mind-set.

I recommend you go on more of a spiritual path... possibly yoga, meditation and hypnosis to calm you down. Rubbing one out might help out also. It's time to ground yourself and backtrack a little bit. You need to find balance.

I think a lot of men go through some sort of destructive behavior when they finally get good at game. I know I've been destructive and hurtful towards people. What calmed me down was meditation, yoga, learning more about inner game & finally I used everything I learned to build a healthy relationship (I'm not saying you should be in a relationship... that's your choice when you're ready.)

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PostPosted: Thu Oct 02, 2014 9:04 pm 
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Finally someone I can relate to.
I feel exactly the same way. I have so much testosterone and such a huge ego.
I whack it three times a day lol.

It is not necessary a bad thing. I have been hit quite hard by life in recent years and I have gone on a massive spiritual journey so I am learning/have learnt to channel it.
If you learn to channel it, it will be the best thing to happen to you.
For example I have channelled it to my school and university work and other stuff e.g getting a job and networking. This "power" inside of you will take you to great dizzy heights and you will be surprised how much determination and extra "power" it will give you compared to others. I have been called a freak on many occasions because of this determination I apply to various situations is life. I do not give up. And the best thing is that it does not feel like hard work to you but it seems amazing to 99% of people.
If you are a student then channel it to academic stuff. If you are older then start a business or do something like day trading (i.e something alpha which requires determination that 99% of population doesn't have)
So channel it and it will be the best thing to happen to you.
Good luck mate.


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Rein it in a bit. There's no point in being alpha if you don't have the self control to go with it.

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PostPosted: Wed Apr 06, 2016 3:47 pm 
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Since being part of PUA's amazing world, my life has changed from being a introverted person to someone very outspoken and usually very outgoing. But with this change, I've become more fearless, and also more reckless. Last time I would avoid a fight at all costs but now, I don't back off. It's good for most situations but it takes one punch to ruin a life. And now, I'm fueled by inner rage like an inner tiger is running through my blood. I feel so violent and it could be the testosterone but every aspect of me changes from reserved to carnal. Approaches intensifies, Kino is fucking off the roof and breathing deepens. I feel like Approaching HBs left and right and Banging them to ease the tension. Its ok when socialising but I work deep into the night at times and theres no HBs to approach. I don't like to restrict myself, become exclusive and have one GF but fuck, how do I solve this? Its so primal

And worst of all its some sick sadomasochistic ideal that I fucking love. I love-and-hate this state
Hey man!

Your fearless and reckless behavior reminds me of the out-of-control, compulsive sexual
behavior of the men who suffer from sexual addiction with the symptoms of borderline and
narcissistic personality disorders all based on my personal experience with the same matter.

I know that you wrote "I love-and-hate this state" at the end of your post but I'd rather
suggest that you ask yourself how important your overall mental health is to you, because
bear in mind that once you start losing your mental health, you actually start losing your
self.

Look, I don't intend to patronize you in any way but I'd really like you to take what I'm going
to share with you as something that I'd also share with my best friend when trying to help him
out.

While being neither a psychiatrist nor a psychologist but just a guy like you who got carried away
with and wanted to pursue a kind of dream international playboy lifestyle around picking up and
having sex with the most attractive women in beachfront villas and condos worldwide until two
years ago, I was almost scared to death of the truth on how badly my own anxiety issue could
hit me and affect my overall mental health so that I'm now very inspired and motivated to help
open the eyes of the guys who ended up in a very similar situation.

Here's the intro to my story that will hopefully enlighten you to the realization that not only
should you take your anxiety disorder seriously and think twice on that but also that you
should think twice about the fatal consequences of leading the kind of lifestyle that's all
about seducing and sleeping with countless women.

A good way for me to inspire you to think twice about that lifestyle is to share with you
one of my favorite Bruce Lee's quotes that says:

"We do not become, we simply are."

Chances are that what initially pushed you into chasing your goal of becoming a pickup
artist and at the same time getting stuck in your anxiety disorder are essentially two
things:

a) trying very hard to become somebody who you are not while desperately trying to
adopt and live by the model of behavior that doesn't really suit your true personality, and

b) getting seduced into believing that picking up an endless number of women just to have
sex with them is really something that you could call part of your true happiness or passion,
while in fact, this very activity is nothing but part of a pure obsession that you don't truly
enjoy and that in the first place you've subconsciously got forced to believe that you should
enjoy no matter what, because somebody taught you that this is the way of how you become
that ideal alpha man.

What I'm trying to point out to you here is that like many other guys including myself who ended up
in the pickup arts community mainly because our self esteem got badly hurt sometime during our early
age and all we're now trying to do is just lift it up or fix it through gaining a kind of sexual gratification
based on sleeping with as many women as possible in our lifetime, you seem to be stuck in exactly
the same kind of situation.

Before I go on telling you a little bit of my story that perfectly relates to your situation, let me ask
you a simple question.

Have you ever asked yourself that important "Do I really enjoy it?" question when
trying to attract and pick up women?

Asking myself this question was a huge light bulb moment in my life, because it helped me realize
that everything I was doing in the area of attracting and picking up women for years was purely
the result of just acting under the pressure - the unnecessary pressure of constantly forcing myself
into doing what I didn't really love and enjoy at all.

What made me keep forcing myself to boldly approach random women just to pick them up as my
sexual objects was my initial belief that doing it was part of my true passion.

Guess what. I was wrong.

All my sexual advances that I was constantly forcing myself into was a pure obsession that
I now like to call my false passion.

My pickup and sex obsession started mostly as the outcome of dating related peer pressure
from my childhood.

I got stuck in this obsession for two reasons:

a) I initially didn't fit in the social circles of my peers because I didn't really like most of
their behaviors, and

b) my inner resistance toward the peer pressure grew so much that I gradually got myself
into thinking of creating my own international playboy lifestyle surrounded by the most
beautiful women that I'd have lots of fun and sex with for the rest of my life.

As a result, my pickup and sex obsession got me stuck in a long-term sexual addiction with
the symptoms of the two most common men's mental disorders known as borderline pesonality
disorder and narcissistic personality disorder.

Now here's an important thing that I'd really like you to understand.

The reason I've earlier told you that you're doing absolutely fine in your specific situation is because
I'd like you to really understand that the approach anxiety that you feel is nothing bad at all.

Furthermore, your approach anxiety is like your guardian angel protecting you from getting stuck
in the kind of obsession I told you about a minute ago. It's there to protect you from getting in
the bad habit of constantly feeling under pressure of having to necessarily approach and pick up
random women wherever you go. It's also there to protect you from feeling guilty of missing out
on the opportunities to approach and pick up women as you described in your post.

Here're two reasons why your approach anxiety is your best friend and why you should not try
to beat it or overcome it in any way:

1) Again, your approach anxiety is there to save you from getting trapped in the situation that
you wouldn't naturally feel comfortable with and wouldn't really enjoy it in a long run. By the way,
I'm saying "in a long run" because most of us when we get stuck in chasing an obsession,
we're seduced to believe that what we're doing is really something that we fully love and enjoy doing.

2) Trying to beat your approach anxiety by getting in the habit of boldly approaching
as many random women in a day as possible is not only a form of validation seeking but
also something that will push you into an endless out-of-control, self destructive and
compulsive sexual behaviors that are characteristic of the behaviors of guys who suffer
from borderline and narcissistic personality disorders.

By the way, I'm neither a psychiatrist nor a psychologist but just a guy like you who got
involved in the pickup community just to learn the game while never thinking of any mental
health dangers as the result of doing it.

Today I'm proud to say that I have a solid knowledge about the two most common men's
mental heath disorders that come purely as the outcome of practising the pua game: borderline
personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder.

As you can guess, I got into the trouble of learning about these mental disorders because my
severe approach anxiety (that I'd never ever experienced before) was getting worse and worse
and making me feel so distressed even at the times I was about to just take a short trip to my
local supermarket to buy something that I really felt I was not only losing my mental health but
also losing my whole self at such a fast speed that was out of my control.

In short, my one year long mental health educational journey got me to learn the 3 main
causes of all my pains and struggles linked with being involved in the game:

a) the first thing that got me in the habit of constantly pushing myself to boldly approach random
women in different social situations was my approach anxiety, because my approach anxiety
subconsciously became my main motivational trigger that was making me boldly approach
random women especially in high-risk social situations.

The more approach anxiety I felt, the more encouraged and motivated I was to approach a
random woman no matter what kind of situation she was in and who she was potentially with
at the time.

b) the second thing that got me in the same unhealthy habit of constantly forcing myself to
boldly approach any random woman that I was sexually attracted to was an abnormal sense
of entitlement. I later realized that I'd absorbed this sense of entitlement and got it to become
part of my personality through the process of learning the game since most pua trainers often
teach guys to feel entitled to freely approach any woman they like.

As the result of my mental health research, I learned that one of the main behavioral traits
of the guys who suffer from narcissistic personality disorder is exactly the same kind of
unhealthy sense of entitlement when boldly approaching random women anywhere they go.

c) the self-destructive habit of constantly forcing myself to boldly approach random women
in dangerous, high-risk situations is one of the main behavioral traits of sociopaths and the
guys who suffer from borderline personality disorder.

In short, the most common symptom of the men suffering from borderline personality disorder
is boldly engaging in dangerous life situations. In terms of dating and picking up women, this
refers to any kind of out-of-control, compulsive sexual behavior where a man often stupidly
exposes himself to an unnecessary risk or danger of getting harmed in one way or another,
because he starts to feel guilty if he doesn't take the challenge of getting himself involved
in such situation.

By the way, what I've just shared with you are also the symptoms of sexual addiction.

So, this is exactly how my initial pickup and sex obsession turned into a long-term sexual
addiction with the symptoms of borderline and narcissistic personality disorders.

And, here's the conclusion I got to after I finally got myself out of this whole trouble.

I got stuck in the vicious circle of anxiety-driven, out-of-control, compulsive sexual behaviors
around meeting women for years purely because of my childhood's hurt self-esteem that I
desperately wanted to lift up by sleeping with as many women in my entire lifetime as possible
just to be able to defiantly show off to my peers how sexually powerful and successful with
women I was.


Hope you find this post enlightening and helpful.

Bruno

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PostPosted: Wed Apr 06, 2016 3:51 pm 
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Come on Bruno. The OP hasn't logged in in nearly two years. Stop spamming the forum with your sales pitch. You've made your point.

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