Hey lads,
Whilst beiing sick today, and feeling crap, i felt myself sliding down the hill again. I've been analysing alot of my thoughts, and came to the conclusion, that my happyness totaly relys on my confidence.
And my confidence is easily destroyed.
Who am I
I am Flurrie, aged 17 and come from a relatively small town in Holland. I am introvert and my main passion is reading. I am in the last grade of highschool.
What's the problem
The main problem is, that very small things can make me very insecure. Like when I had to mail a research proposal to some professor, i just did'nt dare to read my male for two days, like djeesh
The other problem is that i'm not very skilled in the game, wich relates to the main problem.
The goals
I understand, that as one fail for something, one feels sad, but with me it has allways been worst than sad, and I want to end that.
I have two main things to do:
Get better at the game (become a pua) and to overcome my fear of failure.
How to achieve
To actually do this, I will need some pressure, and this thread is ideal for it. I will write during this week, what I have done, regarding the game and, in lesser account, overcoming my fear of faillure.
First week's goal
Have fun! Talk to girls, lose (a bit of) the AA.
Don't watch any porn! - it makes me feel shit.
Who wants to give me some advise is allways welcome, and maybe you will even find yourself to like reading about this kind of stuf.
C'ya tomorrow for the first report
