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Author:	bonin321 [ Sun Apr 12, 2015 1:22 pm ]
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hello, so i decided to make this post like a diary on my way to change so im vin 21 years of age 100% virgin and a very awkward person quiet and socially withrawn an introvert, bullied, rejected, lonely and depressed went to a point where i was hallucinating things but thank goodness i recovered and got my life back that incident happend 4 years ago when i was 17 and all i want is to catch up the lost life and years. stepping out of comfort zones was not easy but desperation was the one who fuels my spirit i started 2 friends for the whole 2 years of college at third year which is the present i got like 8 close friends (in the university) and a few acquiants i still have this loneliness deep inside i cant satisfy and the long for acceptance when i first saw pua on youtube it then something sparked. here in philippines poverty is rampant but i said to my self money dont matter much to me what matter is my personality development now that is real Gold i went self-helps and reading books wish i could find some seminars here in our city about pua first approaches were nerve shaking, heres one of my latest pick up reports almost-zero-aa-newbie-vt189477.html

Author:	bonin321 [ Sun Apr 12, 2015 1:52 pm ]
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#firstkiss? #firstnightgame #achievementandfailure so pua daygaming is addictive whenever i go out all i think is about pua ill be preparing my self and destroy everything this summer class last friday night was my first night game night game is gold for me because my parents are very religious and strict i can only go out sometimes if i had a good reason or a lie i warmed up approached 4 sets at the mall and headed straight to the bar with my 2 friends ordered a litter of hard drinks and saw 2 girls sitting beside us the 3 second rule was amazing i approached them without hesitation both of them were minors had good chat for 5 min but they were about to leave so i again lurked and found 2 class level 8 and a class 6 women surprisingly they were again minors under aged my opener was a destroyer i said to them "i have a big problem im with my 2 friends but i have a date today who should i be?" and they said blablabla and i replied what if my date was you? can i have you both? and share a table? they bursted out laughing. after the first 7 minuites i felt soo happy and overwhelmed i ranned out of materials and my natural had to come out i tried opening rapport to them for which i failed the music was loud they were not in mood for those talks my cheesy jokes were shittt they started talking to my quiet friends and they told me your friend is attractive and wtf? i thought women are drawn to confidence and they seemed bored and inattentive to me im only an average type of person not that handsome anyway. and i felt hurt maybe my pride or belief was i dont know but i said to myself fuck this bitches you cant defeat me my self value did not depreciate instead i was angry. but before the night ended i asked for a kiss from another table whom are friends with those three women she was about to go and i asked for a kiss she smacked my lips and i felt it was an achievement for me my virginity went down to 98% also when we were about to go my friends keep searching those three gals and asked them to continue the drink at their place i told them not to look desperate for which we did not build connection to them but they insisted they were snob ed and made them chase i felt sorry for my friends what i observed that night my cheesy personality runs in our blood if not introverted they are cheesy like my mom and cousins the class 6 was friendly because she dont get much attention than those class 8 i have a gay friend whom i envy not because hes gay but how he percieves the world and his humour there were three kids walking and i was analyzing what to say and he said " behold the three musketeers ! but dont underestimate them because if they were the last person on earth i would definitly have affair with them rather than animals" everyone bursted out laughing i know i must not concentrate on what to say but concentrate on how i feel but what if im cheesy. i believe i can change that i cant accept it im doing change formyself and not for others and my lonliness somehow was cured for which i felt like i can build my own circle

Author:	bonin321 [ Mon Apr 13, 2015 3:34 am ]
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first day of summer class no teachers were around so the students did nothing but stare at each other although not much were present i approached 1 and opened a small talk. everything was fine talked about the school, about my travel yesterday and ect. shes a happy person likes laughing and teasing we went to the other building together and i tested her if she remembers my name but no luck. no sexual tension no kino it seems to be my lack of experience to woman i find it unatural to tease and make kino on to the next subject still no teachers and i immediately approached a cute girl ME: is this foreign language? CG: opo (very polite yes in our country) ME: what? im not your grandfather she then laugh and the conversation started introduced my self but no kino and tension we talked about experiences like travel and stuffs and her very cute friend came to sit in beside us and joined the conversation i somewhat moved from stranger to acquaintance that day but i felt frustrated at the end for they did not remember my name and I am so slow or maybe im just being perfectionist its a process yes. although my AA is history

Author:	bonin321 [ Wed Apr 15, 2015 6:45 am ]
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i try to avoid girls if they are with someone a boy or could be their potential boyfriend because my level is not that high for that pu but last night was the inevitable. went clubbing again with a friend at exactly 8 pm had some shots and i found a target a group of 7 girls so without hesitation i approached them and used an opinion opener and bla bla bla until they told me to come table with us i was gonna sit down and call my friend and when i looked back two gentlemen were standing beside me and gave me a serious stare they were both tall and skinny indians and told me "what were you talking about" thou i didn't panic and remained calm the words just came out ME: i was just being friendly, introduced my self and i just thought they need a chaperon but i think they already have your presence so ill be leaving . INDIAN: cool, your good INDIAN2: (shaked my hand) you can come and table with us but i did not accept the offer for unknown reason i just declined when i came back i noticed my friend went slowly exiting the scene yet we just both laugh at what happened and the other day i slept the whole morning at the school cafeteria

Author:	bonin321 [ Sat Apr 18, 2015 8:44 am ]
Post subject:	Re: orb's journey
attack on mall and kino escalation part unlocked i went gaming at the mall today approached like 15 times rejection and success were quite balanced but one of my todays highlights was i unlocked a new kino move told her i like your hair is it real? can i touch it? then i moved my palm to the top of her hair down to her neck but i wasnt in the moment of touching her hair i mean i did not feel the feels i just went playful and got her number and suprisingly we go to the same university shes a freshman

Author:	bonin321 [ Tue Apr 21, 2015 4:06 am ]
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a quick sum up,,, that girl i approached at the first day of school i was absent the other day so the whole left side was full of girls heaven hbs7-9 the other side was a desert but i sat down with this cute girl and screened her found out she had a bf and my mindset program belief that if he has a bf i had to back off activated but what happened is when our teacher told us for a seatplan i noticed the other side with that girl i approached was vacant she was making a smiling hand gesture to sit in beside in the heaven but i wasnt sure if i it was me maybe it was her friend. moments later i noticed it was me so i shitted my self in regret it was all because she sometimes show signs of cold responses whenever i greet her never knew she liked my presence wish how can i be super assertive and and not easily discouraged \ but how any suggestions? mindset techniques? and i rushed to this forum after school to express my regret

Author:	bonin321 [ Thu Apr 23, 2015 6:13 am ]
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found a wing man and told me about the pua community in our city, we met through my cousin introduced him to me he told me he was dormant havent surged for months for he became busy we opened sets at the mall we approached in turns for he to observe i he told me frankly all my blindspots that i talk too fast and how my gay-ish style of approach and i have this mindset that assuming the person im talking to would leave ME: hi, in the last 15 minuites you were the cutest. HB6: oh thank you ME: you got good vibes girl a positive one are you also ....( she was trying to leave and i was talking too fast) WING: hey is that your companion going down the escalator and are those kids? HB6: yes they are my cousin WING: hey look at your nails you used white correction fluid on it? so childish and maybe your good at marbles too? HB6: haha no im not WING: before i let you go give me your name and number HB6: oh okay sure haha WING: alright give me a hug my poise was i was like about to jump right into the girl my poise was all wrong and i should be calm and cool hes style was cocky funny while i was fed up with conversation style of opening at 10 pm we had a drink before we go in to the club to do night game but alas there was no one we can game for the club was empty at Wednesday night. i also shaved my hair for he told me i act too nice and i also look nice and to have a new look

Author:	bonin321 [ Fri Apr 24, 2015 9:34 am ]
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i created my own akward shit test and goodboy mindset the title says it all heres the details today i decided to sarge again at the mall everything was normal till i found this group of dancers there was a performance playing at the mall i pass right through them for some issues because i judge people by their appearance that they look strict and 100% rejection is reality. the fear was disguised like fear of death the feeling of me when i was on top of that light house in our travel . i can jump but i know ill die ... like i can approach and talk but i wont die but i wanna die forever!!!! emotionaly so i took a u-turn and went back to those dancers and i said an opener to them "hey i saw you earlier at the stage and wanted to say congratulations you did well" and with a playful tone they said we havent even started yet i replied owh is that so? well you take care in my mind while i was walking away i was like wtf? i coudve have exited better and there was this one approach i became aware of the goodboy attitude ME: hey dont be scared im not crazy or anything but i just wanna ask if you think im gay? HB: nono we are scared and you look gay (playfuly) ME: ok i look gay? but am i not delicious? that final statement thou....i coudve said what if i show you my dick would you still think im gay? and whenever someone insults me playfully i respond with high respect and love and a goodboy i wanna fucking change that mindset of "to be nice to everyone" its been sticking with me for years

Author:	bonin321 [ Sat Apr 25, 2015 11:51 pm ]
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a new night game experience last night my neighbor invited me to a island outing we were 6 3 ggirls and 3 males it was a party when we arrived everyone was drinking and it was like a beach disco club i just came home from the party exhausted typing my diary each of us ended with someone outside i clinged to this drunk girl we were dancing and holding each others waist hugging i litterally dont know what i would say i just spoke every word that pops into my head even it makes no sense i need to develop and the words were lame luckily she was into me maybe because shes drunk lol i told her stuff so i could kiss her but failed like you smell nice and im horny with you i want to kiss you( i know it was lame my natural is lame) she just responded but why am i not horny\|? i invited her milion times to come over to our cottage but she resisted instead after the dance i visited their table and asked for her number before the night ended we each roamed to the tables with the girls we acquianted ok its time for a shut eye

Author:	bonin321 [ Sun Apr 26, 2015 1:52 pm ]
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dafuq is wrong wid dis life i must learn to never let my self be offguard and let my feelings manipulate me the only one who can love me is me everytime i get ignored or rejected i always affirm silently "IDGAF" and it gets better.. chatted the drunk girl from last night i said to her that shes no bitch after all when i talked to her friends and screened them she said "oh my i should change my image" that means she was a bitch after all what was i thinking that i found my first true love?my love story? its so bullshit and i know a lot of guys become a tail of their girlfriends the so called good girls they are all the same and God? i used to be a devoted follower holding hope to his scriptures that they may come true and to endure this life of misery... but all was false hope.. i found out the secret of life is to never give a damn and to be numb and you will become a God. and yes lord i complain

Author:	bonin321 [ Tue Apr 28, 2015 12:50 pm ]
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so its a normal day of daygaming at mall but i tried something new i changed my mindset i never realized i was half hearted when approaching girls expecting that they would leave so this time it was new i learned it from rsd nation and im just having fun approaching day by day im getting more natural in talking becoming more calm but i want to achieve a level where i could bring them home on daygame which is a masters level and an upcoming night game this saturday night im so excited and tommorow im gonna try crash and burn!!!!

Author:	bonin321 [ Wed Apr 29, 2015 7:45 am ]
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so crash and burn report was a fail trying to get rejected but what i got was an exit humiliation i was flat not in the mood maybe because i slept 2 am woke up at 9 then overslept at 12 eveything was flat no vibe no emotion no nothing 3 HB8-9 was sitting they said i was corny not my expected reaction to be hated went home crying on this forum writing on my log NOTE : next time dont oversleep

Author:	bonin321 [ Thu Apr 30, 2015 11:41 am ]
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comeback is real.. my mood and morale was high for i was with my close friends my vibe and energy was over the roof and sarging at mall. they are not pua they just watch me from afar approached a HB9 with a jerk opener my oepner was im the son of a rich company im rich now give me your number.. they were pushing each other to give the number after a while of playing i revealed that i was just fucking around and we had a getting to know conversation and she gave me her e-mail for which she doesnt use phone much ( which is impossible and she was lying) screened her and found out she was a freelance model the next approach was a improvement i got an instadate not sure if it was a date i approach them with a indirect opener and they even thought i was inviting them to my band after then i switched the conversation to a getting to know mode then we talk about food and invited them to company us to a takoyaki stall and we walk talk.. and got some escalations and number

Author:	bonin321 [ Fri May 01, 2015 10:10 pm ]
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last night i slept around 3 am the inevitable happened again i fell slightly in love and have so many thoughts with excitement rushing in last night while she was texting me till 2 am i decided to cut down the chat for im too sleepy and i should make my self a priority. we havent met yet but she was kinda pretty at facebook and i invited her to come with me to the mall tommorow and clubbing at night she was a friend of my friend thats why i pmed her but this morning after we became friends on facebook i noticed the 8 was not really that solid she was like in 6 or 7 she had angles which she looks good.. iwant to see her in person so i can take a good look i never had a girlfriend before but i became choosy when i felt like i had the power to choose.

Author:	bonin321 [ Sat May 02, 2015 7:17 pm ]
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my innocent eyes were opened how the world and people around it works for sure world and people is evil. i made tonight night out possible i spent like 700 php treated 2 of my friends and that girl and btw that girl was a bitch had one child and a fucking user and my best friend who i thought was told me i am selfish me? fucking selfish? i treated you tonight and i even borrowed money on my cousin just to let you enter he told me i was selfish because i was hurrying to go home for my mom was bothering me on the phone to go home and its 2am already i cant forget how he taunted me in the club to approach a girl and told me im a coward and told him back why dont you approach her? and he just made a boastful facial expression after the night he keep yabering about whom she danced and telling me how loser i am it was my first clubbing i admit night and day are totally different i am more used to talking than touching i i am even a stiff dancer and i do not know what to do in night club and just now that girl called me she was crying telling me his boyfriend got mad at him because of jelousy and i am the one she called because her bestfriend has already settled and do not want to bother her so i was her choice i listened for 12 fucking minuites and giving her fucking advices and fucking responds i felt like the fucking nice guy again. tonight was also amazing added charge to experience.

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