13 Oct 2012:
Progress on weekly aim:
- I have started to take up more space in general. Sitting in the tube, when I went clubbing etc. All very very fun
. It certainly has an effect on my mind whether its placebo or not and I feel much more like I am in control.I went clubbing with work colleagues. Again took up a lot of space and really enjoyed myself. 2 girls came from no where and started to dance in our group. Then all of a sudden one of them started to dance provocatively towards one of the guys in my group. He was not at all interested and moved near me.
For some reason I did not do anything when in reality this was the perfect chance to say something to her even if it was the apaclypto opener or something but I did not. Anyway this girl clearly wanted it so bad because when my friend moved away from her she went back in front of him and continued to dance.
My friend paid her no attention and she kept dancing but then the lights came on and the night was over.
She went away to a table and started crying.
Learning point: Girls really want loving too. Its one of those things that AFCs tend to forget in my opinion.
Learning point 2: I regretted not doing something the next day. I think I was too concerned about what others might think to do something but by being so worried/outcome dependant I 'failed' anyway so I should have done something.
Secondary aim progress:
I have started to become more aware of when my thoughts are negative. Generally I seem to be getting better at spotting that and changing my mindset
.I am also going to meditate more regularly as I recently I have not been able to do so daily.