Hey guys
It seems like i'm back to square one in regards with my AA,
I've approached 8 girls so far but i've lost that momentum
which is really shit cause I started off well (I have realised
my problem now and I know how to fix it for next time
so thank god that is a relief, I think too much and approach
too slow! I'm going back to just easing myself into
a mindset where I first became comfortable
the very first day I began so I can finally
kill this AA
Epiphanies are cool)Anyway, I went to a different mall this time and
tried approaching some girls (it was loaded with
9's and 10's so it was my lucky day) Long
story short I had SO many opportunities
flung my way this time and I felt just
down because I couldn't do it, I just
couldn't fucking do it (thank god
I realised my problem so I can
take care of it now!!)
When I got there I was really really
thirsty and this one coffee house makes
these fucking amazing fruit smoothies and I
I told myself that "GOD, I would NOT, I would NOT get
a fruit smoothie unless I approach a girl,
no matter how thirsty I am!"
I probably passed maybe 20 HB9's and 10's
that day and the more I thought about it
the worse it became so I left it for the
day and ended up getting my smoothie.
Now check this, I paid for the thing
(guiltily) with my last 20 bucks
and plus some small change
I had left over in my pocket, maybe
13 bucks give or take and I ended up
giving that money to the waiter for getting
me the smoothie quickly and I never
give tips,
and began heading for the
ticket machine to get out
of the mall.
I inserted
my card into the machine
and firstly it said "TRY AGAIN"
which was my first clue and I
got like a "Holy shit
"kind of reaction. I didn't see
it then but I think that was
my first clue that I should
have tried again before
leaving, I brushed it
aside and inserted
my ticket in and it said that I need to insert
10 bucks to pay for the time spent
there.
Get this, that 13 bucks that
I gave to that waiter, was supposed
to be for the ticket! I was then stuck
at the fucking mall for 2 hours until
a friend of mine could wire some
money into my account so I could
pay to get out...! In those 2 hours I was stuck
there by myself, just thinking
about how I wasted my
time and got that
guilty treat instead
of doing what I went to the mall to actually do.
I think because I broke my promise to myself
I paid the price for it and those 2 hours I had
that epiphany to just go back to square
one and start from where I was most
comfortable approaching... I think this happened
for a reason.
What do you think, coincidence or was
that some sort of karma for not
approaching? I'm going with
the latter on the karma on
this one
