OK so basically i'm going to keep this shortish. i liked ,well still do, this girl at uni it didn't work out long story short she single handily destroyed my self worth for my self. Shes in my halls and said that im too nice for her, well her previous boyfriend cheated on her, so that pissed me off well the logic behind it.
i see her allot well use to until next uni term in September, ive went back where I live now and work full time at my old job, its frustrating all i do is stack shelves im going into depression working there and I've been having a lot of negative thoughts like whats the point of any of any of it and how our these people okay with doing this for the last ten years and the people couple of years older than me and have just accepted to stop at that level, with no motivation to move or expand i understand some of the people family and other commitments and etc but i just cant live with myself working there longer than i need to. It also doesn't help every time i log onto facebook i see the girl i like posting or doing general fun stuff but i guess shes not working full time.
Well the point i'm telling you guys this is i generally don't know what to do, i want to improve myself, not for her but to prove to myself that i'm just better than that (not in a spiteful way obviously
)ive started to learn how to trade stocks in my time im not working, mostly cause i enjoy it, but its not filling the gap, i think its because its just money and i don't think that's the problem now.
i think the problems just boredom when i take it to the bottom line and me wanting recognition and excitement(ill change this though i planning to go to Brazil for the world cup in 2014 and climb mount kilimanjaro).
okay it wasn't that short it turn into a rant but peoples advice would be appreciated, on the things that they want to improve on or just achieve thanks for reading this hopefully this helps build my confidence back up.