so me and my girl ( 8 months) got into a big fight on Thursday night. i got angry and left, i said a couple F bombs towards her and walked off. I tried a soft next but it was not working this time. she had always called me repeatedly during a soft next saying she was sorry. this time nothing at all. after the fight on Thursday I have been broken down and have been drinking alot to pass the time (never done that before). up until this point 90% of the time i had never had to be the one to initiate the dates, to initiate calls it was great. but all of the sudden nothing.
i started worrying as we have gotten into fights before and nothing came of it. maybe she is not answering because she got hurt, or a family member died? I told myself. I give in on Saturday night and I started calling her and leaving multiple voice messages. she did not answer my repeated calls.
I got a message from her on facebook saying "please". at that point i got the message about what was happening. it turned out my worst fears came true. I was so god dam confused, up until that very fight it was great, it was fun, WE HAD JUST LOST OUR VIRGINITY TOGETHER WITHIN DAYS OF THAT FIGHT.
I expected this reaction though and mentally prepared for it over the past couple days. I left her a message saying basically i will return her stuff and wish her the best of luck. she finally called back afterwards and we explained both sides of the situation. after a good talk I asked her what she wanted to do. all i heard was the line die without a word. I freaked out and the situation sank deep into my gut. after a minute she facebooks me to say her phone died and that she just "wanted to spend less time together". I called her again and we scheduled something Monday. the day before my birthday. (My birthdays have always been the most depressing days of the year I don't know why).
she was always asking me if i loved her and if i wanted to be with her together i guess she just got fed up. I know what her problem with me is and I know how to improve it. mostly inner game stuff and sitting down and having discussions when we get irritated.
getting this girl was so much work in practicing day game, I just want to make this relationship work.
so please advice on how to handle a girl when she does that "flip" and goes from happy to complaining because of something i said. i tried ignoring her she just tries to leave then. if I left her go then the relationship is in danger of failing. if I try to stop her the arguments then just picks up (I have bi-polar disorder and I try my dam best with meds and CBT to keep it down and control my moods). I'm thinking my best bet is when she just feels irritated towards me is to just sit down and practice CBT on her and have a discussion to find the problem and cool her down. she never gets too worked up to where a logical discussion wont fix the issue i found.
my world has been flipped upside down.
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