4 Years passed, I am older, (smarter?) way more self confident, this confidence has counted for nothing, Nothing that matters. I have been captured and torn in a relationship, it has forced me to mature.
The harsh reality has hit me smack on my face, I just spent 3 years with the wrong girl, and another year beating myself up for allowing it to happened.
the passed year I've spent in a shell made out of doubts, self esteem issues and generally having the worst conscience known to man (yeah right?)
I used to beat myself up due to all the lies (and ooh boy there were some!)
But as of today I figured, what is there to regret?
I got out of a relationship I was stuck in, I have a complete new carrier staring dead in the eye and saying; I´m yours, conquer me.
Yet no one to share that with, I am fine with that. (I am not looking for commitment, and I am the type)
But the reason I am posting this, is fairly simple; I have lost touch and skill. I am an old fossil, an extinct bread, the kind born in the 80's!
So with that said, I am back and I am lost - hook a brotha up, how the heck do I get the "hunt" feeling back, you know what I mean - the feeling, when you go out your a god, a king an arrogant prick, well all the above
SF