How did I get here??
I'm Bacco, I'm 21 years old and I'm living in Los Angeles, CA.
two years ago I broke up with the girl I though was the love of my life (I know, it sounds so AFC, I suffered oneitis). the truth is that we really shared amazing moments and sad moments. it was a 2 years relationship. I met this girl when we where in elementary school and I felt in love with here since the moment I saw her for the first time, she was one of those popular girls in the school; so that made me think I couldn't be with her but 3 years later I got her.
well the thing is that I wanted her to be my princess; I gave her everything and I indulged her every whim. (too bad, I gave her the control so she got bored of me). we were really ok for a period of time. we moved together and there, I lived moments I never though at the age of 18. suddenly she started to talk about a guy but I'm not a protective person so I didn't care about it; but she did it more often.
one day she said that it was over, she argued that it was not working anymore and that she was not leaving me for no one else but because it was not working (she was leaving me for this guy). obviously I was not going to let her go just like that and so I spent the next three months trying to get her back; during that time I lost all my dignity. I cried, I lost my pride for her, and I even begged her to back but she didn't do it. I used to meet her once a week and she used to talk to me about this new guy (how bad ah?) she told me that he was cold with her, he didn't take care of her as I did, things like that but she was still with him. I couldn't believe it, how could this girl be with him after all the attention she received from me. the truth is that I thought that I couldn't do enough because this guy was 24, he had a good job and a car, and it was better comparing with me; I was 19, I was in school so I had a part-time job and I didn't own a car
. The most important, her family appreciated him.I had a hard time thinking about her having sexual relationships with someone else. I don't know why and I never knew why she used to called my every single night; we used to talk so nice and so sweet. she said that she was going to leave him but she never did it. one day she said that he asked her to marry and she said yes. it was weird to me because the proposal came only 3 months later of starting!!! and it get worse, her parents agreed with him!! how could you accept your daughter to get marry with some one she only know for 3 months?? well, believe it or not, it was all true.
it is being so pathetic ah? I know, I realize how bad I bad and things get worse. she told me that she wanted to forget about everything and start over; she told me that she wanted to go with me (I was traveling to LA from Mexico) and leave everything. forget about what happened and about her family without saying no one word. we did it, we traveled with my family to LA but she didn't say nothing to her family. once we got there, we talked to my family (I'm the youngest) so it was hard for me. my brother and sister showed me all their support and they said they were ok with what I decided. we told them that we were going to move to somewhere else once we got enough money. the next day, after saying all these things, she said she wanted to go back with her family; I didn't stop her so she said she was going to go back with me one week later after fixing all the problems with her family but guess what?? she never came back. 15 days later I received a call from her saying I was the worse she got, saying that I ruined her life and coming with me was the worse mistake ever, so she hated my (all these words crying) and she said she was going to get married 2 weeks later.
After that, I got into a deep depression. I deleted all my accounts, my hotmail account, my hi5 account... everything. I didn't eat enough, I got really slim, I drop school, and I stayed at home and even if I didn't call her, I used to think about her every single day and so on. my depression lasted one year and a half. one day a friend of mine who is into de movement told me that I was suffering oneitis. I was like wtf is that?? he explained me and introduced me to the community and well I have to say that at the beginning in sounded stupid to me. then I said "why no?" and I finally opened an account there (ligue total), a community in spanish about all this pua. I read the book of the game by neil strauss and other books in spanish about this same thing. since there, I've been better with myself, I decided no to be depressed so I went back to school and I started to be just like the way I was before (take care of my image and being happy). I work on hollywood so I see a lot of hb's 10 and I really enjoy the time there. my problem is not approaching girls (sometimes) but keeping interested in me.
I'm right here because I don't wanna be that AFC who's waiting that girl who hurted me so much. I've read great stuff and I've seen too many videos of mystery, and many other pua's. I've seen movies, and all these things have changed my perspective with women. the way I used to see them. no I can say I'm back. I forgot everything I can say it was only a little rock on my way so nothing happened.
the truth is that I promised myself no to talk about her anymore but today is a special occasion, everything starts here, saying the truth and the story of how we got here.
I know it was a little long but everyone has a different story. this is my story and I wanted to share it with you.
ps: sorry for all the spelling mistakes you may found here in my presentation but english is my second language. I'm from Mexico city, 21 years old and I've been in the community for 6 months (aprox). I'm a member of a forum in spanish (ligue total). since there I've made some good closes and I'll post them here later on.
thanx!!
...bacco...