Hello, I'm an 18 year old dude from Europe. I don't know if I came to the right place but I really really really want to change.
I have never been with a girl or kissed a girl. It just sucks, I see kids from my block with girls. It pisses me off. Am I worse then others?
I don't have the feeling I'm a social outcast. But maybe I am. I dont have many friends, well I have like 5 people where I can be myself fully. I feel comfortable. But as soon as it's weekend I'm just here alone. Sometimes I wish it was school during weekends too lol
But anyways, 1 of those 5 i hang out with. But like me, he is not socially strong. Like quiet gamer dude but not totally nerd. The only thing I do with him is play videogames at my brother. (who is ten years older, single, as far as I know hasnt been with too many girls) I don't want to be single anymore.
Ok now the shittiest part, really shitty. When I'm new at school (been in 3 schools last 3 years) or new at any location, I always look for the girl I want to be with. ( I guess everyone does it constantly)
So at my last school I fell in love with SERIOUSLY the most popular girl of the whole school. And she digged me too. And I swear she was the hottest of the school. But.... I flirt with this girl and we smile at eachother, I'm not really scared to flirt or something, I really enjoy it.
But after flirting I have to approach. I never did it. No matter if the girl was 1 meter infront of me. This stuff went on for like seriously 2 years. The girl never gave up on me???? But I stay pussy and shy. And after 2 years her attention wears of. Ofcourse lol.
Ive never even said hi to her. Like what the fuck.
But now the shittiest part, Im at a new school and the same fucking scenario has happened. However, this girl's attention doesnt last 2 years. It lasted about 6 months or something. I've said hi to her so thats a positive point I guess. But after I said hi I think I walked away when she talked to me. But Im not sure. Fear was just taking over.
But anyways since a month or something she doesnt take interest in me anymore, I fucking hate this shit. Shes a 10. And everyone around me is in contact with her except me. She just ignores me now. And her friends just laugh at me, I would do the same probably. Just fucking sad.
well anyways thats me I hope to change yesterday.