Hey all.

I live in metro-Detroit, Michigan. I'm 23.

Apparently this is going to be a long post, so, if you actually read through all of this... congratulations.

My first attempt at "the game" was a few years ago, in the beginning of 2007. I spent some time reading maniac high's site, as well as fast seduction (probably other places too, don't remember). I was in college at the time, so I used some of what I had learned. I was by no means a PUA, but I suppose at the same time I wasn't quite the same AFC. I lost "interest" in the game once I had found myself in several successive LTRs.

Out of college now, single, and in a completely new area, I found myself questioning just how to meet new people, new girls, and just really enjoy life.

As recently as a month ago, I got back into the game quite seriously. I've read "The Game" and Mystery's book. I feel I have a comfortable understanding of MM, though that's not my problem.

My primary goal has been focusing on my inner game. I have stopped drinking pop (effectively zero caffeine intake daily). I work out almost daily. I bought some new clothes (avatar). I even use different shampoo (and conditioner). I make an attempt to shave daily.

I feel confident about myself but I still don't quite feel like I'm at the place I want to be. I tend to wonder if I'm subconsciously sabotaging myself, because if I were to go out and actually apply my skills I might have some success. If that happens, what motive would I have to continue improving my inner game?

I don't really feel anxious about approaching a girl, or group of girls. I feel I can talk to just about anyone and have fun. The feeling I have most of the time is one of indifference. Also it doesn't help that I don't feel rushed, for every one cute girl there's 10 more like her, why bother with the one cute girl? The other side of me advises that I simply wont know what she's like if I ignore her.

If that was my only problem, I suppose I might be better off. I also believe I'm suffering from cognitive dissonance. I've absorbed several methodologies now, MM, RSD, SS, GWM ... and they are all battling each other for dominance, or at least, preference.

I'm tempted to say "go gunwitch," but then the M3 side of me suggests I use some DHV canned material.

Of course that depends on exactly what my goal is, something I haven't quite figured out...