What's up guys
I have been very controlled by my parents ever since I was a kid, and really have had no real social life, so needless to say I have 0 game, which it feels more like -50 game. Anyway I think I have finally have gotten over the anxiety of stepping into a bar, just the thought alone of stepping into a bar was very painful for me, because the few times I have gone there I have been totally ignored.
I now understand that it is actually not the girls that don't want to talk to me, but that I do not have social skills and so I can't interact with people, so at least it is a step forward.
I know this is going to surprise a lot of you, but I still live with my parents and I am 30 years old, but I finally decided to move out, which is a scary though because of the economy and people are getting let go in my company, but I decided I have had enough, I want to finally grow out of my shell and become a man, and though it is easy to write it down, I am not sure how easy it is actually going to be.
I don't have any friends, I really shut my self out all my life, not sure why. It could be the scars from years of psychological abuse in high school by my so called "friends" so I was always frustrated and depressed and often had a connection closer to the columbine kids more than anybody else, although I don't think I could ever hurt anybody, much less shoot people.
So at this late stage in my life, I am trying to integrate with society once again. I want to truly be more social and try to understand the human interaction. I really need all the help I can get.
When I go out to bars or clubs, I force myself to talk to girls, but everything comes out so phony and rehearsed. Besides the fact that I always walk in to these bars by myself, is that good or bad?
As soon as I open my mouth I can hear my self mumbling for words and I can feel how almost instantly girls get creep ed out.
Here is my biggest concern, how can I be interesting if I have never done anything interesting? and even if I do something interesting now, how can I talk about it if I can't talk to girls??
I am trying to force my self to go out at least once or twice a week even though there aren't many place where I live, Central NJ, I am reading The Game, and it seems so simple, but when it comes time to actually put it in practice it is so hard, I have also watch the Pickup Artists show on vh1 and I can't understand how those guys go from 0 game to being PUAs? is there something I'm missing?
Are there any pointers you guys can give me that will help me interact with people? I think baby steps is the key and that is what I'm trying to do. I am tired of being the odd man out everywhere, and not have any friends, and even if I do have friends to bore them to death in a short amount of time.
Thanks for any pointers guys...
The ultimate newb/geek
Tuco