hey guys... I'm 16 and my love life is a MESS!!! I heard histories about guys who were far more worst than me! I'm from a little country, called Portugal. So here is my freaking life history...
when I was a kid, like 11, 12 years old, I was a idiot... as all boys from that age... the only thing that I wanted was my skateboard, my books and my xbox... of course I was a fucking retarded...
at 13... well I fell in love for the first time... I mean uncontrolled love, cuz I liked other girls, and of course I never had nothing with them... Neil Strauss, had the "just friend" thing... I had the "never want to see you again" thing...
My first love was a woman... not a girl... a woman... she was hot... and I took the courage to tell her that I lover.. I was committing a slow suicide... after a year me and she stayed friends, but only at 15 I stopped loving her, because she was gone for other part of the country...
I had a children heart...
In the summer of 2010, I had my first kiss... with a girl that I didn't like at all, she kissed me and I haden't a single reaction :p (typical idiot). I felt so unconformable
Well in september, I go to school, new class, I didnt knew enyone there... of course, once again the social retarded within me spoked higher... wanna know something guys... I HAVE THE GREATEST CLASS THAT A GUY WOULD WANT... 27 people... guess what... 5 guys!!!!
again, I felt in love for a girl there... and again I told her, the classic hollywood, "I love you"... and of course I had a neg... again -.-
But I loved her so much, I asked God so much for having her...
I was frustrated, capable of killing someone, for something that only I have the responsibility... one day I was with a friend... he already had his sexual experiences, and he was like a guru to me... he is not the better one, but still I though that having 5 or 6 girls in our life was nice... of course today I know the pua society... 5 or 6 girls its not in 19 years for the pick up masters, but in 2 or 3 days
Still, that day, I called the girl... I had one of the worst negs ever --'
and my friend said to me... today your gonna eat a girl...
at night, he had two girls friends, from college... and we had a opel with 2 sits... the girls gone in the back of the car... eating each other xD
when we arrived the beach, we started talking, the girls started to strip their clothes, staying only in bikini... start talking, making hot games, and drinking... 1 hour later I was eating the hotest one... so we make out... It wasent like the last kiss I had... I was PERFECT... I started puting my hand in her boobs, and pussy, but she wasnt secure of what I was doing... today I know how many mistakes I made with girls... today I know better the mind of a woman... but I'm still a virgin... and I HAVE TO FIGHT AGAINST MY FEARS WHAT EVER IT TAKES...
I'm still afraid of aproach a woman in a street, or a coffe, or even a night club... or my school
I'm still a shit in the "talk", cuz I never know what to say
I'm still a freaking retarded at teasing, cuss first I HAVE TO DOMINATE THE OTHER TWO
and of course... I'm still a virgin...
the good parts??? I think positive... I think that every problem that we have, its to turn ourselves better, and make us an example for others...
and of course I have u guys to advise me and help me...
now u know my history. compliments for u all, friends
and thx