Hey guys,
I would like to talk about my personal actual scenario. I think I have the answers, although any words or advice from you will be well received.
Two weeks ago I met a girl at a bar on a Saturday afternoon. She was on a 3 girls set. I approached her, talk with them and asked her for her number. We started texting, just a little and normally within hours due to our busy schedule. Also we both prefer the face to face interaction.
Ok, so next Thursday (5 days later) we met up for a drink. The date started nice, then had a little cold/off moment (due to something we were talking about) and, after that, it raised greatly. We found out we share a lot of things, hobbies and values.
We talk a little and the Wednesday of the following week we had our second date. We went out for dinner (since she ends late her work I thought it would be nice to allow her to eat something haha). The dinner was amazing. Lot of laughing and playing. After that, we had some drinks at a bar and we started making out. Next morning she send me a pic me regarding her job and said she had a great time and we should do it again.
Following day she texts me saying that she would like to meet me on Friday night, but she is going to leave for the weekend with some girlfriends and due to her workhours, Friday night would be her only chance to prepare for the weekend. I said ‘no problem. We will have plenty of days
’. She answered –and I particularly love these details- ‘that’s true, but it would be nice to do that (our date) again’.
Ok, so on Friday I send her some pic that reminded me of her and she answered ‘I have a proposal. I decided not to leave this weekend because of the weather. What if we have dinner on Saturday night? We can go out or if you feel like cooking we could cook together (we both like that)’.
Saturday night – we had dinner at my place. We cooked together, shared wine (two bottles, actually haha) and had sex multiple times. She slept at my place and we had breakfast together. She left around 11 am. I must say it was amazing. We both felt calmed, relaxed together. Like we knew each other for years.
Following day I am at a club and we texted around 11 pm. I told her I had a great time and I wanted to repeat. She thanked me for night we spent and she wants to meet again. She specifies that she is gonna have a busy week but ‘we will find a moment for sure’. To sum it up, she is a yoga instructor (begins early and finishes late with dead hours in the middle) and she is finishing a Master’s Degree.
This morning (Tuesday) she texted me asking if I was free from 6 pm to 7 pm and wanted to meet for a tea. I said of course but I finish work at 7.30 pm so I could not. ‘We will find another time. No problem’.
THE PROBLEM? Myself. I mean… I feel terrified. Literally. Since yesterday I have been thinking about her over and over again, not in a positive way but in a negative one (like what if she does not wants to meet again?) Even when I am writing this I see how fucking fucked up is this. Why in God’s name would I feel like this? There is no damn reason. I did the fucking toughest part… But even now… I feel terrified of not seeing her again? WHY? My opinion is that, for the first time in almost a year, I feel something about her. All the other girls… I did not care if I saw them again.
To make things more clear, I have not over texted her and not proposed a specific date plan. So, from the exterior POV I am good. But, from the inside, today I have been feeling scared. IMO it is because I like her. I see material GF in her and I want to have a LTR with her.
I don’t even know why I am posting this. I guess I just needed to get it out of my chest within people that maybe could understand me.
Any advice on my next step or any other kind of words would be appreciated.