i know i should never apologise for desiring a woman, but here's the context:
i met with a female friend, a female coworker of her and some random dude in a bar yesterday. the second girl has a boyfriend who lives in a neighbour city. she would frequently hold eye contact with me and smile for no reason, i don't know if she was really attracted or just being friendly but oh well, i assumed the former and went for it.
the problem is i was already drunk and high when i started gaming her harder, so although i was interacting confident and outgoingly, my calibration was off, i was very direct and my advances probably creeped her out. when we were bouncing, my friend yelled me to stop, because i was making her friend uncomfortable. i asked the girl if that was true, she said "yes, you are. stop it!" and i was like "ok".
but as soon as we arrived at the next venue, the girl started to throw ioi's again and it was game on, bitches. my friend always looking at the interaction with the craziest angry face ever, i don't know, perhaps she was jealous, lol.
i wasn't the smoothest, quite the opposite tbh. the girl was smiling and seemed comfortable with touching and hugging (no tension), but she told me again to please stop (meaning it). i said alright, i'm going home, bye bye, then i went to the stage and asked the solo artist who was playing there to borrow me the guitar and let me play a couple of songs. fortunately, i'm awesome at this and i rocked the place. she was waiting for me close to the stage when i finished, smiling and reaching for a hug. lol, learn the guitar, guys. that's huge. i think this was my golden opportunity to k-close, but i pussied out and let that emotion fade. i hate myself.
anyway, i continued teasing teasing teasing, went for the kiss twice, she gave me the cheek twice and, meh, i kissed her neck because why not. smoke was coming through my friend's vents at that point, she was now in a personal mission of cockblocking me.
no kiss, no sex, no phone (i was so drunk i forgot to ask). booooo!
sorry for the long story. i want to keep gaming this girl. huge chance of rejection imo, but oh well, at least i can try. i found her facebook (creepy?). i'm thinking about friending her and sending a message apologising for going too strong on her in a public venue. this is a small city so people talk a lot and i should definitely be more discrete when gaming committed girls around here, i just want a way to let her know i acknowledge that without sounding weak so i can hold at least a slight chance of her ever wanting to meet me again. i'm all ears for general advice about how i could try to reopen her via text, please. thank you, guys!
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