Ok here is my problem.
I have met this girl outside, I approached her and I got number from her. We were supposed to meet after one week when she comes back to town. I texted her on Monday if she is still interested to meet up; she agreed same evening and we went out. We had lovely long conversation at the bench in park and at the end she had to go in order to catch bus, so I kissed her and we made out very shortly. She broke it off because she said she couldn't do it while there are people around laughing. I asked her if I can see her again and she said sure I'll text you when I am free. We parted and I had quite odd feeling after, because she broke off the make out and the fact she said she will text me which put me in waiting position but I tried to shake it off and later at night I wrote to her I was glad to get to know her to which she responded that she really enjoyed time with me. I wrote back that we have to do it again. She agreed and said she might be free weekends. I asked whether she might be free Friday night, she said she is going out with a friend and weekend is better so I accepted but said I have to check whether I have free time, because friend is supposed to come to my place Saturday. She said she can wait than and I should go with friend. I wrote back that maybe my friend might come other time. She responded “if you say so”. After couple days I asked her out for second date on Saturday, to which she replied she is busy and Sunday is better. I asked if she can reschedule Saturday, but after I understood that she wants rather Sunday and I agreed on Sunday around 17:00. After few days I wrote to her what we can do on Sunday, since Friday and Saturday is usually out drinking; I suggested nice chill out outside, to which she replied sure alright but she will tell me for sure on Saturday if Sunday works for her but she will try her best. Well I started to feel she is pushing me to a maybe pile and losing interest so I asked whether our age difference is problem for her. She said its not a problem as long as I don't have serious relationship in mind. I asked whether she wants friends with benefits that, she asked if I want that. I said I don't have problem with it and I am the least jealous guy I know, and after little chat we agreed friends with benefits might work. So I proposed that she can come to my place to watch movie and chill out on Sunday. She said she will try and let me know Saturday. I agreed.
Saturday I couldn't take it anymore and I wrote to her
“So how do you see it ------ ? Do you have some time to meet up in center?
”
she didn't respond but received my message, at the end of day at Saturday I snapped and I wrote to her “------ I guess you are too busy to meet. It's ok I am busy as well. Maybe this just won't work if you are not that interested.”
I kinda regret that message because it was little negative but well damage is done and I felt like Sunday is not gonna happen. Sunday 16:45 (today when I wrote this post) she wrote to me
“It's okay I'm coming out today. I'll meet you in ---------- (totally other part of city and no reason for us to meet there) in 15 mins”. This message was I guess meant for someone else so I wrote “------ you sure you mean me?
or was that for someone else? xD”
and after 10 min I wrote “I would gladly meet you but I can't right now and also that's for someone else
. Text me when you change your mind and wanna meet up for sure:). No “maybe” dates any more. I am too busy to adjust for that.”
To which she didn't responded at all. I guess last messages I started to **** up.
I am not exactly sure what I did wrong as I had feeling the date went great and the kiss was good just didn't evolve fully. I am just guessing I have waited too long for the kiss, and that I was maybe texting too much after and accepting “maybe” dates but over all since I like her A LOT I felt she was being clear when she will be free. I guess I should have made more physical contact on the first date to create some stronger emotional connection. But than again if she was sure she is not into me she would rather ignore me and not pull my leg by responding and saying maybe she will meet me. I would like to ask whether there is chance to get her and what to do. I suppose I have to not contact her for some time. I just don't know for how long. I am afraid that whatever interest she has it might go down if I don't keep contact, but than again I know I can't raise any interest by text/call so I guess my only chance is to wait and see if she contacts me. What do you think I did wrong or what I should done differently? I also want to ask if it is ok to call her later on if she doesn't contact me. That could show I am not afraid to call her since we just texted so far and just simply say “I still think you are sexy and by the kiss I can tell you are very passionate in sex so are you still interested to meet up?” or something similar and insist only on exact date and exact answer otherwise I don't agree.
if it helps she is very hot 18yo girl with rock style clothes, piercing in nose, she skateboards a lot and goes to parties and clubs a lot, she said she is very sexual and had sex since 14,5 yo and she is terrible in relationship that's why she wants more like friends with benefits. But she is very nice and kind to everyone. and the reason why I like her is that she is extremely cool in attitude, I mean chilled, totally different from girls, she is living alone because her dad died when she was child and her mom left country far away for work. she tried every kind of drugs but she doesn't seem like addict at all.