| This post is about the journey of all this knowledge I've soaked in,in the last few months.
I'm good looking,6ft2,well spoken,intellect,musician,Cnc programmer,people know me.
I have two brothers,one is a natural who's 27 and bagged 30 odd women and my younger brother is built,good looking and all the women know him(they love him),but he's more the one women type.
So in saying this,we as brothers have a pretty dam good rep,where people greet me and I'm like "who the eff was that?" Type of vibe.
Anyways.
This is my situation right now,after my ex left me I went to shit for three months,lost my identity,my vibe,my personality...all of it(women were repelled by me)..my rep was shit and it only fucked me up even more so.
So I began to train again,eat better,smoke my weed again,fake confidence,and in three months I got my way back to a first night lay...
And then landed two more lays within the following three months with some kissing here and there...So What?!
Here's where I'm getting...With all of this info I'm somewhat in a idle mode,I want a to sleep with and get with more women(I'm on 17 women btw) but I find myself almost hollow in a sense,I know look at everything,from body language to ioi's to on and on,i find myself ticking checklists when talking to women in order to get what I want and to be frank,it's driving me crazy,my mind cooks when thinking about all I've learnt to applying it,because it's extremely complex when you take it all and put it in a basket,it's more than just meeting women,you begin to apply it everywhere,it's not Pua anymore,,to me it's social dynamics,animal behavior,animal instincts,sales,pshycology and on and on,,,it's human behavior and when you go deeper it becomes yin/yang,spirit,your being and a understanding for why the world is the way it is...fucking deep stuff!
I haven't pulled in over two months,my balls are going to explode,I find myself looking at porn,dreaming about sex and when it comes to women,I feel like they regard me as a dick because all I can do now is neg them..funny how I got so good at this only to be left back at square one but worse because I know what I know about pua but not getting any.
I feel as I need to unlearn inorder to come right again.
Or perhaps get help from a real master pick up artist,because I'm feeling Afc and developing a frustration when it comes to women,,
Has anyone related to this or felt as I am?
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