hi all. sorry it's been a while. last week there were no sarging opportunities, the two weeks before that my mother and brother came to Germany so I had no opportunities, and the week before that I pussied out honestly.
So I went out last night with a friend of mine. we're both exchange students in Germany, he's from Slovakia, and I'm from America, so bonus points there (especially for me, because girls love practicing their English). I have like zero confidence or experience, although now thanks to this stuff I have a theoretical knowledge. he's in the same skill level, but doesn't know about the community.
so first I met a girl that saw me in school a few times, but wasn't in any of my classes. Samuel left when he saw what was up. she approached me and was very drunk. it was going pretty well, but I didn't do anything besides talk, so once the conversation went stale some other people approached her and I pulled out of set having failed. the window might've been open, but I'm not really sure there.
then I approached this other set of four. two of them were really into me and Samuel, but one of them convinced them to go. I don't know what her problem was, but she was pissed at us for no reason.
then we approached a two set that was sitting. I recognized the signs right away, but Samuel really wanted to sarge them, so we went. just as expected we could hardly get a word out of them, and they didn't seem all that interested, except when I said I was American.
then we sarged a five set, and Samuel took the others away so I could be one on one with the target. it is the most embarrassing thing. the window could not have been more open, and she was by my standards really hot. I never closed, and eventually someone else approached her as I crashed and burned once the window closed.
the first really drunk girl approached me later and the window was wide open, and same thing I pussied out.
grand total: either myself or myself and Samuel sarged 3 sets, and I was sarged by one girl twice. in total there were two times that the window was open, and i'm kicking myself right now for not kiss closing. I am really pissed that I had opportunities and didn't take them. I have become a pretty good conversationist, and approach anxiety doesn't make me shit myself anymore (exaggeration. I have never literally shit myself while sarging).
this seems to be a recurring theme. I can think of 7 distinct other times in this past month where the window has been wide open and I didn't close. I have to do something about this. from what I've read it seems kino is the answer. I had absolutely zero kino last night, and in most of my failures. any other information about the kiss close dilemma would be most helpful.
to look on the bright side, I know I can. the girls want me. it's all about me not having the balls, and not about their disinterest. I'd much rather have the problem be me than them, because I can fix myself.
I don't know if I'll get another chance to sarge this month. today I can't stay out too late because of a football game tomorrow, and this Friday I go home, and living in a boring suburb, there will be zero sarging opportunities until I get to college (I'll be going to purdue, so if any1's in west Lafayette, indianna hit me up) I also heard that there was a lair in west Lafayette, but I haven't been able to find it on the internet, so if any of you know about this please tell me.
Jaffa cakes out
|