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Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Sun Mar 19, 2017 1:19 am ]
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March 17th


Field Report: Lay Report:

My roommate was in grieving so i decided to ask my cute girlfriends out to cheer him up. Being in feminine energy always brings the mood up for any man. We went to a local bar where people were celebrating St. Patricks day. I came in and there they were my 3 beautiful girls. We are just friends, I did sleep with a couple of them but we have been through alot so we keep in touch

So skimming through the friend shit we went to the back of the bar where my good friends proceeded to bust my balls. I am used to her doing this because i dish it right back. Anyway, her guy friend came by and this is the guy that she has been hooking up with. That was my cue to leave because I knew she was going to dip out early. I exchanged goodbyes, hugged and grabbed the ass of one girl who has a donk and went on my merry way.

My roommate has a girlfriend now but he still flirts and helps me out. We went to another bar where we gamed a few girls. Nothing solid since the girl that opened us was drunk and not within our standards. She was trying to get a drink but we told her that we were in line and that she has to wait ;).

I was just using her for practice and her friends come along and act weird :roll: . My wing saw the akwardness and said lets go somewhere else. I agreed and we said our goodbyes. Only one of them was in my standards. Not worth having my wing go through entertaining two of them.

I texted one of my old flings and it was a drunk text. I just asked her if she was out and about. She then told me that she was at one of the bars. I told her that we were heading there actually. She was trying to be all like "oh, we might leave soon, etc" and I called her and told her to stay put because I was already walking in.

Kate..oh Kate...I saw that she gained a couple pounds. Nothing devastating but she wasn't firm like I remember her. It has been about 2 month since I talked to her...at first I opened her nonverbally with my body. I just bumped into her and played it off like in the movies lol. She was like hiii and my roommate was there. I let them talk and I talked to her cute friend. I was straight up with her and she was straight up with me.

She said I tried too hard. I let that sink in. I made a post the other day about storytelling and it reminded me that if I talk less, the better. I told her thank you for the feedback and I appreciate it. She was very sweet and told me that she liked me but I need to cut it down a bit.

I then turned to my fling. I gamed her and told her to follow me to the front for a drink. My wing was actually signaling me to wrap it up. He was right, I already slept with her and all I needed to do was do some LMR. Now, this sounds sociopathic but I knew what was going to occur. I told her to go back to my place to which she agreed to "hang out". I brought her into my room to where I set up a show I have been watching lately. It's a great show! Rick and Morty lol.

As I laid on the bed she wasn't following the lead. I then grabbed her and placed her next to me. I tried a kiss for giggles and she was like "nope hanging out" I said ok. I let the tv do some work for 20 minutes and then tried again. We started talking and she was telling me how she didn't want to be a bang piece. I sought some closure as to why she abruptly ended the fling. I assured her that I won't make the mistake of making her feel that way. After that it was smooth sailing. Eventually I will have to let her know that I am making moves to go and move to NYC in a year. I won't be hurting her like that.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Thu Mar 23, 2017 5:04 pm ]
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Field Report/Life Report:


Life is going well. I am writing this first sentence to remind myself to not self sabotage this lifestyle. I have ADHD and I won't have any medication until next week. However, a week of doing nothing is detrimental for my productivity. The least I can do is move at a snails pace rather than none at all. I also need to remind myself to not overeat since I am very impulsive right now.


Back to life: I have two fuck buddies. Kate is back in the picture but I don't think I will ever see her again. Not on her part but mine. She isn't the girl I want in the end. I have been chatting up my dermatologist girls who tend to me. I invested in having my skin clean and cleansed by professionals. It's pretty expensive but the point here is to maximize my looks. It has been paying off as it has skyrocketed my confidence and I have been more risky. I chatted up this 39 year old hottie. She looks amazing for her age and I told her that. She was pretty appreciative. We kind of were flirting a bit and she joked that maybe she should date younger guys. I told her...maybe you should ;). We kept chatting but I didn't pursue it further. I didn't want to be known as the guy that asks every girl there on a date lol. I wanted to be selective if I chose to dip my pen in that particular pool of girls. I definitely flirt but I didn't ask her for her number or anything.

I walked out today from the office with solid confidence. ADHD is only amplifying it. I can't wait to be back on meds so I can organize my thoughts better...until then...

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Sun Apr 09, 2017 2:25 am ]
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Everything is being placed in motion. I have had an odd last month. Things were not panning out but like the article in my sig, it's all about patience and working towards your goals slowly but surely. I have been chatty lately. I talk to people without hesitation. However, I have noticed that my text game has gone down and I have let myself go. Time to sharpen the blade.


I had sex with a girl that was okay. Not a girl I would carry around long term to be honest but I needed to shake things up and she has been pursuing me for awhile so why not throw her a bone. There was literally not resistance when I F-Closed it. It was a matter of just handling the slutty feeling which I did. I reassured her that I am a low key guy and that I don't have time to gossip nowadays. She liked that. I don't think I will go out of my way to hit her up again.


Tonight i am supposed to meet up with my ex for a drink. It's just a meet. I definitely won't be spending too much time but I thought it would be a good test since i have never met up with any of my past exes before. I usually move on. This time I have moved on but I am curious to see what the evening has in store. I hit up an old fuck buddy of mine and she has agreed to meet up tonight. I plan to do it after a drink with my ex.


2017 is my year. I am going to go into savagery mode like I haven't before. I was scared before and young but now that I am older and many of the PUA's have guided me to this long time coming. I have gone into savagery mode before but I always didn't go over the hill. This time I will go over the hill and see what's in store.


Things are looking up. Just gotta face my fears and brace myself.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Mon Apr 10, 2017 2:10 am ]
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Life Update:

Wow, I don't know where to start. I went and met up with my ex last night. Mind you that I don't do these kind of things often so I didn't know what to expect or feel when I saw her. When I saw her, I felt a little twinge but nothing I couldn't shake. I resumed my confident persona and led her to the bar. Here, I caught up with her and we talked about our past relationship and what we have been up to ever since. I told her honestly that I probably won't be monogamous for a long time. Right now, I am just in date mode.


She started to tell me about her dating life and almost started to talk about her past boyfriend but I told her that this part of the conversation isn't really interesting to me. She changed the subject. I actually had another girl lined up because I didn't know if she had a boyfriend at the time for me to F-close her. I got the hint when she started making physical advances on me. I brought it up and she told me was single. I told her that I didn't know that and the last time we talked she had a bf.

I also told her that i had another girl lined up later in the night and that she is my priority. However, now that I know that my ex is free I told her that maybe next time she will get lucky. Yes, I said that. The night ended when I told her I had to go meet up with this girl and that it was nice catching up. I kissed her and told her that I will talk to her later. She tried her emotional manipulation that worked on me couple of years ago but this time I saw it for what it was. I told her that I am not falling for it and I will see her another time.


I ended up with that other girl I told yall about. She fell off the map for a couple of months but I assume that the guy she was seeing didn't work out so back on my dick she goes.

3 Fuck buddies at the moment. But I don't stop looking. 2017 is my year. I will realize all my dreams. Health wise, career wise, and relationship wise.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Mon Apr 10, 2017 1:29 pm ]
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So I did a thing-


I told the girl I have been seeing and who has been smoking me up that I can't be her boyfriend. She has brought it up to me a couple of times but I always got around it and never laid it out. Tonight however, I decided to tell her that I was moving to NYC at some point. Might be a year or two but I would like to spend time in another place. I told her that i couldn't give her the boyfriend status because that would be irresponsible of me when it comes to her happiness. I definitely told her i like hanging with her and spending time with her and that i care about her. If she wants to she can still come around since I am still here but I told her I support any decision she makes.

A part of me feels like it was a cop out. I am not monogamous anymore but I felt the NYC thing was a more of a sure thing. I am still 50/50% on monogamy and am unsure so I didn't tell her that. Only reason I could tell my ex about the monogomay thing is because she already heard that spiel from me during our relationship. I was a bit more comfortable telling her that officially. Either way, I handled that like I knew I would have to. A part of me hopes this girl sticks around because she is a kind, cute, and generous girl. Someone I like to spend time with until i move to nyc.

Another part of me feels relief that I avoided another relationship. I am growing and I feel like a relationship can't help me with that at the moment. I still have a lot of unlocked potential and i want to experience many things this year.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Thu Apr 27, 2017 2:02 am ]
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It has been a long time since I written in this but here is the update-

I have managed to keep the girl that I told her I can't be her man in my life. She comes less to my crib but she knows what it is. I do like her though as she speaks to my introvert side of my personality. I am happy she stuck around. 2. I reconnected with my ex-girlfriend and we have been spending a night a week together. She clearly still likes me but I let her have it and told her what the business was.


This doesn't mean she doesn't try to manipulate me into caring for her more than I want to. I just remind her that this won't blossom into anything again and that she should let me know when she meets a man she wants to "date" and we can part ways again. I am getting my old mojo back.


3. I am currently working on my resume as I want to get a day job again since I am over the evening shift. However, I do not want to lose the pay I have now so I will be doing shopping.

4. I have been smoking some marijuana each day. I only smoke a bit and don't overdo. I have been successful in spacing out 60$ worth of weed over the month. I usually run out by the end of the third week. To balance this, I have cut back on drinking alcohol. I don't mind. Weed actually has been very relaxing and hopefully one day I can do this without worrying about my job finding out. I have also made a pact that once I am ready to start to apply for jobs i have to quit cold turkey for awhile so I can pass the drug test. I have everything under control and have to keep this pace up!

5. I have restarted gaming girls and adding new ones into my rotation. I noticed I got complacent with two girls and this made me lazy. Now, I am committing to gaming more girls to keep my skills, wit, and even health sharp. As I grow into the man I want, more girls will come to me.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Sat Jun 03, 2017 4:59 pm ]
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Life has been very good to me lately. I don't want to jinx it so I am knocking on wood as I type this. Summer is quickly approaching and the women that have focused on getting ready for the summer are out. The women that have not done the same are also out but I am ignoring lol. My life has still ways to go to where I truly want it to be. I am not sure if I want a GF anytime soon.

I do sure want to travel! I have a couple of lay reports to put out but I just wanted to write out something. I use this journal as a healing tool and for reflection when I need to read about how far I have come. I am happy to be where I am now. I am currently 165LBS as I have wanted from the start of the year. I do want to lose a few more and maybe go down to 163-162. I want to have abs at least once in my life. I want to be ripped once in my life. I want to just be the best version of myself. The women have been coming and going but that is no longer my huge focus. It's still a part of my life but I have other things I want to do. I want to make money and travel. I want to see the world. Top countries I want to visit:

Canada (again, because it's close by)
Mexico (been there when I was young with my family)
Spain
Italy
Germany
England


I am going to be working really hard this month to make some extra cash. I have to pay off my debts too so I don't have to have the government on my ass about shit. 2017 is going to be my year.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Thu Jun 15, 2017 2:30 am ]
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As promised, a Couchsurfing lay report


Now, I am not on the site for this particular purpose. I am on it because one of my dreams is to travel. Having a few friends abroad in case of emergencies isn't a terrible idea.

The German:

So this red headed German woman contacted me to stay for a couple of nights in my city so she could explore. She asked if I could hang out with her if I was free. I said sure, why not. It was about three weeks until our first meet but I kept in touch through text. I did a little attraction building here and there. Did some comfort, just gave it the good old salt and pepper shake of my own personal style of game and she was reciprocating the flirting. I was getting in.


The night of, I picked her up. I noticed she had a donk. I walked up to her confidently and said it was good to see her. I had invited her out earlier that day for drinks with me and my roommate. She arrived at my place and asked to use the shower quickly. She was down for the cause! We went to our local watering hole and had some cheap but strong drinks.

Time went on and she made friends with my roommate. I was pretty happy things were going well. Eventually, I pulled the plug and told everyone it was time to go. Back at the crib, my roommate knew what was up and he left. It was just me and the girl. I just mentioned a text earlier where she stated "hope you can handle some curves" and I went in direct with that. "Show me these curves you were mentioning earlier". After I said that, she turned around and rubbed her butt against my crotch.

I am sure I don't need to get into more details.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Sat Jun 17, 2017 12:48 am ]
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Quote:
Well done. If I had the time I would travel. I'm so busy right now, but maybe in a few weeks. I've always wanted to travel across the USA, East to West Coast.

For readers: learn from the OP- you'd all be surprised how easy it is to travel on a budget and have fun. Cost is the #1 excuse.
I had that excuse once. You just have to make the time for it. Even if it is two weeks or a week, I will try to go all over the U.S. first before I got overseas.

But, you're right, it's difficult if you have things going on and I think you're in school too. Plenty of time ahead Da, just keep it on the backburner on the list of priorities.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Thu Jun 22, 2017 10:19 pm ]
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@ DA, that's is probably one of the reasons I haven't moved back the city. The difference in rent in other cities is crazy. But, I am sure you will figure things out.


Update:

Currently, I am working hard in my current job and I recently started teaching English to Asians over the internet. It's a SPAM type deal and the pay is great for the pocket money. I have many plans to pay off many things with this side gig and I think by the end of the summer, I will have everything I need to have a successful end of the year.

I am currently still dating the first stoner girl but I recently laid a second stoner girl. Shiiit, this will save me tons of money on buying weed, lol. Just kidding, the girls are actually pretty cool. The second stoner girl was off of POF. I pretty much read that she is "here for a fun time, not a long time". I pretty much just opened her with that and I guess she bit. When she was over I took her upstairs and poured ourselves some drink. She and I kissed within the first five minutes. I didn't need to do anything. After sex, she tells me that her cousin, who went to college with me, remembers to be and she kinda gave me a good word.

I love making impressions.

Life is going well. I stopped counting how many girls I have slept with. There is no reason and I would have to start naming names but for what? I am focused on making money, bettering my body, and seducing great women.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Mon Jun 26, 2017 5:52 pm ]
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Mini Lay Report:

Decided to try a chubby chick. I knew she was chubby from her profile picture (POF) but I didn't mind since I started to get to her know her a bit and she sounded intelligent. At least I will get some conversation during this interaction. So, I didn't waste time setting up the date. I made it at my house since I didn't really want to go out and spend money. She agreed. I got some wine for her, and liquor for me. After we talked on the couch I knew it was game time and to wrap it up since I knew she would be down.


The reason I knew is because some of our conversation included talking about our sexual experiences. She didn't really hesitate there. After a few more shots, I told her, hey, come see the snake in my room. Yes, I do really have a snake in there. She went in there and I did the rest. Thankfully there was no awkward moment of her sticking around after sex. She actually initiated it and said, I should get going; to which I got up and helped her find her clothes.

We said our goodbyes and that was that. So, yeah, my first chubby chick. At least she was cute.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Fri Aug 04, 2017 8:57 pm ]
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It's been awhile since I've written in this but there are a couple things I have been learning/cementing in my brain that has caused a shift in thinking.

1. Time is limited, focus on what is important.

We are brought into this world but each of us doesn't know when the day will come to say goodbye. I have been using this thought to make each interaction count. It doesn't have to be strangers, lately, I have been busy hitting up old friends and family to keep them in my life and to let them know that they haven't been forgotten. This has opened a whole new door when it comes to women. I am able to connect with them more because I know that even if it's a short fling, I want to embrace the fact that I had her and I want her to remember our time together as a good one.

This has helped me understand that negative talk and other things are important anymore. Life is passing by and I need to make sure I get my fill of it. I will get old. I will develop ailments because of old age, but the least I can do is live my life now and prepare my body by eating and living a healthy lifestyle.

2. Girls just want to know that they aren't being taken advantage of or used

Girls have recently been telling me "wow, I am not used to guys doing that. Usually, it's one sided. I give more than they do."

Now, I grew up in a household where we were expected to help one another, even if we didn't like each other. We still had to help and get it done. For me, I don't really need anything from anyone. I don't need their money, their food, their validation, and I don't need a woman to keep me happy since I know there are plenty of girls out there that will be happy to have me.

I have been treating girls like friends and lovers. I give them advice, or I help them out with a task if it's happening right then and there. For example, I was in Ottawa, Canada last week. This girl lets me stay over at her place for two nights. While I was there, I practiced the simple art of if you use it, then put it back. Or if she cooked and I ate, I did the dishes because that is my way of thanking her for her effort. Girls have been impressed with this and they don't give me much drama because they aren't used to my demeanor. This also helps with the connection, because she knows I am not interested in just sex (even if I am).

3. Being a bit outspoken might be a good thing.

Lately, I have been telling girls some things I like and don't like. I just want them to see me as a real person who has preferences like anyone else. This also helps me see if the girl agrees with what I said or she gives her perspective. Sometimes, girls just nod. In that case, I will change the subject. However, this has helped girls kind of adapt to my preferences, for example, I have been vocal about girls who get all needy and sad if I don't text right away. Now, I don't do this because I want to fuck with their heads, I have been really busy and I have many things going on. I am vocal about that as well. The girls know I am a guy with ambition and it's hard to take me off course. They respect that. I just give them a call or something to let them know that even if I am busy, I still think about them.

4. The idea that even if she sleeps with another guy or something along the lines, that is okay. As long as she comebacks and treats you like a king.

Now, I have been doing open relationships for awhile. The girls know that I want to move back to NYC someday because I want to experience the lifestyle for at least a year or two. Girls throw in and there about how guys are flirting with them and how they love them, but they usually downplay it once they see that it doesn't really get me emotionally reactive like that. The reason for this is because as long as they don't throw me away like a piece of paper then I don't care. I am doing the same. I am seeing about 2 girls at the moment with a fuckbuddy here and there. My mind is a bit more open these days. I know I will keep learning but I am liking where I am at. Thank you for reading. Much more to come :idea:


Still, practice safe sex everyone.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Thu Aug 31, 2017 12:48 am ]
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Field Report: Just to show you how far I have come in the field.

Night game:

I haven't gone out in awhile, mostly because I am able to save money, call a girl over, and I haven't had the itch to go out but I went out this past weekend. It started off like any other night. I got off of work and told my roommate that we were going out. He texted me earlier so I was feeling pumped up. It's been a couple of weeks.


Once I arrived home, I got ready and told my roommate to call the Uber. I have to admit that I was worried since he seemed to have caught the tired bug and was looking drowsy. I told him to call the Uber and we will work on that mental state. Once in the Uber, we practiced getting into talking mode with the driver. My roommate did most of the work. She looked like Hagrid's wife...no offense lol. I didn't find her interesting and I focused on my meditation. The only reason I did that is that the driver played no music. Houses went by, and all I heard were the two of them talking.

We finally arrived at our usual bar and the night began. We looked around and it was the night of the Mayweather vs Mcgregor fight. There were a lot of girls lol. We took advantage and the more girls there are, the easier it is for me to game. Something about a womans essence that really gives me some energy as of late. We went to the back of the bar and talked to one of the bouncers we knew. Before we started mentally masturbating or anything, there was a girl walking by. She and I made eye contact and once she was in range, I lightly nudged her on the arm and told her to come here. That's it. That was my opener. She gave compliance and started chatting us up. Later her other two girls came over. They were well in their late 20s or early 30s as I can tell. They were also boring.

Then out of nowhere a cute little blonde came over and asked me if I was around a certain area. Apparently, she thinks she saw me earlier today and I told her no. I was too logical. Too many women talking around me at once and then one of her guy dudes in her group was tapping her on the shoulder for her to come back lol. Poor guy. I should have taken advantage but I didn't. She eventually left.

As for the 3 girls from the beginning.
I did a look with my wing and we dismissed them.

We then went to the front of the bar and there was a group of three girls that stood next to us. I told my wing to open since I already did my first but I could tell he was having a hard time getting into a fun mood. They eventually left. Next up a girl came to my left and I opened right away. She was hooked from the start. I told her that she can't get me too drunk or ill become really naughty. She was loving it. Her other two friends came over and my wing got some talk time with a tall slender blonde with blue eyes. She revealed that she was 20 lol.

The whole night was just full of teasing and the girl I opened tried to kiss me a few times. Since I have been getting laid regularly it wasn't too hard to withhold that kiss. She eventually verbalized it and I told her I don't kiss her in public (attempt to pull or plan a seed for a pull) unfortunately my roommate has a girlfriend so he couldn't join. The tall slender blonde realized that she wasn't going to get any dick and my girl didn't want to seem like the only one going home with someone.

Eventually, I just grabbed her number and we left to go home. I realized how easy it was and how if I could talk to my younger self, I would tell him that you will reach that point where you will do fine and that he shouldn't try so hard.

Things I want to do different next time:

Open more sets.
Either game without my wing or seed a sexual meet since my wing can't fuck other women due to a gf.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Sun Sep 24, 2017 6:27 pm ]
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Sept 24th


It has been awhile since I have written here but I wanted to give a casual update. I am still seeing a few girls. Two are ones I have given a hard like. I will name them B and K. B lives in my area while K has somewhat transformed herself into my traveling lady. We went to NYC last weekend and it was great! K has pushed me to do things I didn't normally want to do and that's travel and try new things.

I went ziplining for the first time a month ago and I thought I was going to piss my pants being up so high. It was in Canada The Riptide line. After doing it, I never felt so free. The next step is bungee jumping. I will bring my roommate for that one and we can all enjoy the experience. K is a beautiful woman and she has a logical part of her which is very attractive to me. I am used to having girls being all wishy-washy and me leading them 100% of the time but with K, I only have to lead 85%. The other 15% is either her bringing up suggestions or voicing her opinion on the activity. I like it. In the bedroom though, its 95% of domination. I love it.


As for B, she has been with me since February I believe. She is a stoner but she is a responsible girl as well. She is definitely younger but she gets along with me just fine. There are times when her age does show but I quickly nip it in the bud and she goes back to being all kind and sweet.

I do have a couple of other girls that are fuckbuddies but that's about it for them. I recently fucked a psychiatrist to be but she has been pushing for more even when she hasn't even gotten to that point with me yet. I am on day 2 with no contact with her. I am not putting up with that shit. She is a great fuck, however, but she is coming out to be a needy woman. Something I don't like.

THINGS I HAVE REALIZED ABOUT MYSELF:

I am capable of loving or really liking someone. I don't love anyone yet but I can see myself really getting deeper with these women. Something I couldn't do in the past. I know I have threads about emotional connection but it's amazing to see my transformation over the years. I have cut back a bit on the cocky-funny thing, even though it's my personal default and opted for more of a "I know I am cute, but I won't rub it in too much" persona which is doing me just fine. A little humility has done me a lot of good. My peers and my family have seen the change and they don't mind at all lol.

I am also very good at eating the box. I have been complimented by the girls I have done it to. In turn, they have seen that as a rare skill which they don't want to part away with so easily. I am good in the sack. I pair that with a little TLC and the girl can stay as long as she doesn't give me drama or demand exclusivity.

I am also great at working under pressure

I can really kill it if I am organized

The sky is the limit and I know it. It's still terrifiying.

Author:  Mr. Assertive [ Tue Oct 10, 2017 6:58 am ]
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Update:


Where do I even fucking begin?

Well, I am seeing two girls regularly and a third who I had to inform that I am seeing other women. I feel like you guys might want to hear about the third. Ok. Here it is.



So, I took her out to a lunch date (because I wanted to...and it was Mexican: so is she) once we got done with that, I brought her home to my apartment. Once there, I noticed that she looked at the earrings on the counter. These earrings were from when my ex-girlfriend came over months ago before I even met her. After we had sex...she finally called out the elephant in the room. She asked whos earrings were those. And fortunately for me, those earrings really were from my ex. I found them when I was cleaning my room.

I had to drive her home which was the big kicker. Once in the car, I had to address what just happened. Once we got to her apartment I laid it out on the table for her. I told her that I did like her company (which I did, if you don't, don't lead her on) and that yes, I have seen other women while she was seeing me. She was clearly hurt but she needed time to process the whole ordeal. I told her that I am fine with whatever she decides. She did try to spin it on me by asking me "how would you feel if I saw other guys" which I confidently told her that I wouldn't even ask her about it. Case closed. That shut down that conversation real quick. Eventually, she did come back to me a week later and I have her. So I guess I am seeing three girls romantically.


So girl 1 is Bonnie, girl 2 is Kayla, and girl 3 is Cynthia. Some of those names are fake. Just for privacy purpose. I have been seeing Bonnie since February. She still initiates the whole "isn't that a girlfriend activity" when I ask her to go on a travel with me. I politely tell her "lol". I treat her very well and I fully know that she has been here since February. You have to reward that shit. Kayla is the girl from Canada. She has been here since July. I see her maybe around twice a month for 3-4 days straight. We go on about 3 weeks without seeing each other but we keep in contact with phone calls. Once again, she has stated to me "I don't want you to meet my family until I have more commitment from you" which I acknowledge with "mhm, I understand" and I move on to another conversation.

As for girl 3, yall know how that went down ^.

I don't know how I feel about the whole polyamorous situation. A part of me thinks it is wrong but another part of me sees that everything is okay. Just be safe with protection, don't promise them anything more than you are willing to give and you will be fine. Still. Whenever they start asking for more, the questions and morality pop up. I have been doing well with it though. I know I treat them well and they def know I do. Time will tell how all of this will unfold. Maybe by December, I will be saying how I lost all three and that it was a mistake...or maybe I will be saying...those two women I hold dearly in my heart stayed and understand. Who knows. Until then.


Mr. A out.

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