Hey guys so I've been doing some serious reading on all this PUA stuff and I find it incredibly interesting and introspective. Problem is, I can't really apply shit into my real life situations. I have a crush on this freshman girl (I'm a junior in HS) and god damn it fucks my ability to talk and tease naturally, which usually I'm fairly good at.
Anyways long story short I tried to "Apply" the things I read only for it to fall flat as I was too nervous. I then went through a period of maybe 4months where I basically tried to suppress my infatuation as I had no logical reason to like her. I avoided her as best I could for those four months. I know now that it just leads to a destructive cycle of self deprecating thought...
To make it worse, I told one of her best friends (whose also a good friend of mine) about my crush and she proceeded to tell her
I try talking to her after that four month AFC mental beatdown and she actually opened to me. Problem is that now that she knows I like her I feel like she just pities me. When I talked to her about how I thought that it was dumb to put value in feelings if they're just that, with no true connection to back it up, she confessed that she liked a guy and was glad I said that, then immediately said "but I don't like him anymore. She also confessed to being really emotional and crying three times a week...
Apparently I later found out from her friend that she does indeed like a guy who "hates her" (realistically probably just teases her harshly and doesn't really care about her) and she's basically stuck in that self destructive cycle I was in four months ago. It explains the pity, the crying, and I suspect the story in which she said "but I don't like him anymore"
I'm not sure what to do to be honest as I feel like I have to break the LJBF barrier she's probably already set up with some serious change in my attitude. But now that I've had that deep talk with her in which I basically opened to her how I felt I feel like any drastic change in my behavior will just come off as fake and pathetic.
God damn this is so much complicated than it needs to be. Suggestions?
