Hey guys, had a nice evening out tonight nonetheless with this new girl.
However, I am getting quite annoyed with myself about getting my foot into her (any girls) door, or her into mine after perfect dates. I don't think there really isn't much to fix but any points, comments cool, but I want to vent somewhere as this just happened tonight maybe there is something.
So here it is.
Tonight (as with most nights) went almost exactly as planned. Had a nice dinner, couple drinks went for walks, talked, lots of kino.
This girl I was with tonight however I "known" since High school but recently I sparked it up a notch out of nowhere and tonight I let her know the real me once she agreed to meet me. She was very hesitant with kino at first but I knew she liked it because she enjoyed holding hands, kissing her cheek, and being held as we walked talked even though she kept saying we are friends which I agreed
So after all this energy put into the night I drove her home, I dont know what it is, I had it all planned out, I told her I created this artwork and it was published online (it was), and I will have to show her once we get back to her house. So here we are back at her house at the end of the night, we talk in the car for like 2 minutes and for some freaking reason I told her to get out I want to get back home. Completely forgetting I was supposed to show her my artwork inside, or the goal being to get my ass inside her house lol
Now in my mind I believe I told her to get out because the last time I drove a girl home, after a date I told her okay lets go inside and eat some icecream, and she said sorry you cant come inside. And I kinda argued saying why not, and ya denied.
So this time tonight with this new girl I was like maybe if I tell her to get out and see im not interested in coming inside maybe she will invite me.
yep didnt happen, I told her to get out and I gave her a kiss (woopdedoo) and that was that no invitation to come inside.
Figures. What sucks is as I was pulling out of the driveway I realized what I just did.
Anyways I think I learned my lesson, which is by acting out of character (yourself) you act and think in bad ways. It wasn't me telling her the "get out" it was the me trying to act cool. if that makes sense. Something the book models harps on not to do.
Kinda long, to wrap up, the girl I went out tonight is going away on a family vacation this week, you think it will be nice to invite her out once more before she leaves..or wait until she comes back? I am busy with other things for the next 3 days. Wednesday will be only perfect day. but I am thinking with her leaving and all the energy put into tonight and it being so close from last seeing each other it may turn her off.
Just wanted to get this off my chest.