Hello, been reading for hours. (easier to skip to part 9 , we were good, bad, good, and now bad again)
1. nearly a year, me and this girl were girl in july..
2. bad at christmas. Asked me if i wanted to be in a relationship..said yes..told me she didnt..said it made her anxious and she cant give me what i want...we went sideways, saw this other guy, wanted to be friends, i froze her out.
3. She came back after a month..10 missed calls a day, texts, crying and letters left at my work locker (works in same building)
4. been great since (3 months but not a lot of sex), she spent a week here, then called ME? clingy on a good bye kiss when she was running late. i am bad at good byes, but she was the one kept coming back everyday to stay at mine...a week? - i NEVER call first, or text first. she always does. ALWAYS.. maybe ings me several times a day every spare moment.
5. She went on holiday a week. Came back COLD
6. had a bday weekend...was "ok"
7. brought all my stuff back....went cold turkey on phone
8. i saw her at work..ignored her..she talked to me..asked about my doctors thing that day..Told her..then told her she let down on the weekend (6) and said shes been rubbish since and called her a liar about what she did. (just to get reaction)
9. She said again "she went cold to show me she is overwhelmed, got anxious and feels anxious about us. and me making plans for things for us to do" <- (she said for my bday to make a plan for a week DAY for us)... She said she appreciates support but feels anxious staying over and stuff. but scared ill just walk away ....and that im giving her an ultimatum ..i guess i kinda am. love her to bits, but try not to pressure her...dont care if we dont fuck daily..some days shes over me, some days im a dick for trying to kiss her...da fuck? stupid bitch messing my head up
on pof , tinder trying to find a lay...
going to send her this
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I hope you felt it was nice to just see me, despite shit. I mainly just wanted to tell you not to be anxious or worry or think about me and the hospital. I didnt tell you because, i don't want you to be thinking of me or worrying or upset and anxious. Take care of yourself x Dont bother messaging me for a while, if its not about wanting to meet, i will just ignore it.
left our convo i was a bit too chatty, she had to work..with "we need to meet soon and finish the conversation"