Soo guys, what the hell am I fucking up again/still?
After 1 flake, which could be due to her meeting someone else that day (as I was told she is active on Tinder too), I froze her out for 2 days, than she promised me to make up for this and we did go for day3 to have some wine at a nice bar. I got a small present from her, which was nice.
Almost same scenario as day2, intense kino after 30 mins, topics highly sexual. I try to keep it in the frame (but only) verbally that we are only colleauges, yet she might have the chance to be my favourite colleauge
She tells me that I have a bad reputation as I like fucking girls at work... Wow, obviously a rumor got to her as 1 year ago I fingered one HB8 from work, who didn't want to fuck, neither to "be my lover" as she said so I just never talked to her after this and ignored all eye contact even (have been doing this ever since). I didn't deny this rumour and jokingly asked from which site do I like fucking girls and which case does is she referring to
Interesting topic during talking: We both have been to Amsterdam's red light district before. Now she s telling me that if she was a guy, she would pay for a prositute just to be able to do whatever she wants with a professional. I allowed myself to interpret it for her by telling her that she is just missing certain experiances from her sexual life
she nodded
Answering her question I told her that I was feeling the same 5-10 years ago but my wishes have been fulfilled - without paying anyone.
The night ended with another failed kiss close.
Yet, the next day she initiated texting which went back and forth for hours escalated to sex again (ending with me not replying anymore) and she than wanted to have a coffee with me, which I did for maybe 10 mins (was a mistake as its hard to escalate at the workplace).
Now where do I go from here? I'll be travelling with my GF to India and I ll be off for 2 weeks in 3 days. So I can even freeze her out for almost 3 weeks and DHV though instagram.
I don't know why she keeps playing (seeking validation?) and trying to make me an orbiter (won't happen), cannot figure out what the hell she's thinking and wanting. She cannot rely on me breaking up with my GF as it will not happen, not sure she s aware.
Guys, please let me know what you think. Would really appreciate it.