Wow man were you drunk or something when you were typing that? Oh wait nevermind you said you have bad grammer. You should work on your typing so these guys can understand you..
Anyways I will give you some advice, because yes I can read some of that lol
It is good you are having fun and playing games.. but in my opinion you shouldn't pay her if you lose. If you do this constantly you may convert her into a gold digger who just tries to get money off of you.
Finally, if you don't know what to say in your convo just find something interesting to do that involves little conversation. Or find something better to do on your own, basically break off the date to early. Remember communicating that you depend on her is a bad idea.
Good luck bud