What's up everyone, I'm back.
I haven't posted in a very long time, simply because I have been in a relationship. A lot has happened thus far, I have grown in many areas of my life. It is time to reflect.
I have been in a relationship for over a year now, almost a year and a half. After a lot of back and forth, I decided that a relationship was important for my own growth. It is important to know what it is like to be in a relationship with someone, especially someone you love and who loves you.
I am not going to go into details of the relationship unfortunately, simply because there is so much to write. What I will say, though, is that at this point I am no sure how much more I can learn from or grow in this relationship. Before this relationship, pickup was a very big part of my life, because it has helped me overcome fears, saved me from unending loneliness, and developed me as a person, if not into the person I am now.
Whilst in the relationship I missed this aspect of independent growth. Yes, you grow the relationship, but you are still responsible for your own independent growth. Unfortunately my griflriend has not seemed to have grown much as a person in the past few months. She has changed, sure, however this change has also brought around comfort. The comfort is infectious, however I have done my best not to stay comfortable in my life.
I have taken up a personal trainer course, which I am bound to complete within a month, with which I can then earn money training people.
I am also midway through my driver's license because it is time.
I have also lost around 20lbs of fat, and have gotten to a stage where I am an intermediate lifter in the weight-room. I set goals this years, and I'm keeping up with them. One goal was to get ripped, and, alas, I am in much better shape. I have even gotten compliments from people. My drinking has gone down to 0 recently. That's not to say I didn't drink whilst I was on a caloric deficit, but now that I am bulking, I try to keep my alcohol very low.
I am also halfway through a 100 page book, which was another of my goals this year; to write more. I wrote a 120 page screenplay in 5 days, and now over the course of the last 3-4 months I have begun writing a fiction book, and I have reached 13000 words. The goal is at least 17,000, which would make it a novella. However, the goal may also be 100 pages, which would take it to around 26,000 words. Anyway, quality is important, and I am taking my time.
I have also read around 6 books or so, which is a 600% increase from last year. On my 7th now, "Mastery" by Robert Greene. My other books include "The Alchemist" and "By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept" by Paulo Coelho, "The Old Man and the Sea" by Hemmingway, "How Late It Was, How Late" by James Kelman, and "Selbst-Steuerung" by Joachim Bauer. The last book and "By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept" were both in German, as one of my other goals was to just improve my German, since it is also my mother tongue, even though my English is my most fluent language, which is why Í also write in English.
I have kept busy, but I have done a lot of thinking. After finishing my Bachelors of Art in Film and TV Production in May, my life's course is somewhat taking shape. I have sat down and thought about my passions, my goals, etc. The film industry is not for me, even though directing films and writing is. Working out is also for me, a huge passion of mine, which has roots in insecure overweight and underweight teenage years. Pickup is for me, which has changed my life for good. And back to writing; writing plays a very large role in my life I have come to realize, since it is my creative outlet since I have been about 8 or 9. It is something that I just enjoy and am relatively good at now. My vocabulary has increased and expanded, my reading has certainly helped in that department.
Of course, money plays a role as well. Personal Training seems a viable option for the moment, and thus I am putting a lot of my time and effort into both training and learning. Whilst I have done a lot of independent reading and research before my Personal Trainer course, learning the anatomy of the human body and its physiology will take time. However I am confident that I have the ability to provide a professional service.
The job market in Vienna, which is where I live right now, is lackluster, however the health and fitness market is booming. It is only a matter of time until I get a job that suits my fancy. I do have an interview lined up on Sunday.
And yet, after a lot of thinking, pickup is missing from my life. I am a contributor, and yes, I even see myself as an active participant of the community. At least I used to be. I like to think that I may have helped some people, and that I have the ability to coach in real life. I also have the ability to get very good at it, since something about it seems to click in my head. I understand the game, I do understand its core mentalities, principles, its inner workings. And it is a lot of fun for me to take it apart, to report about my experiences, to teach others my ideas, to continue to contribute to the game. It is a hustle, and I know I can be good at it. It has also saved me from my former loserly life. That is why I am passionate about it.
At some point I will come to the conclusion that this relationship is not helping me grow. I have found a rising community in Vienna, whom I am keeping in touch with with my video editing skills. I have edited a couple of their videos. They seem to be the next RSD. They have been featured on TV as the newest flirting school. They have humble beginnings, and they are charging little for their coachings. They have infields and the like, and they are growing, passionate, consistent and motivated. Therefore I am keeping in close touch, even though I am certainly not the most active participant yet, as my relationship is taking priority. However, I do see the importance of becoming more active, participating in Inner Circle Meetings, and hopefully go out with them, as I have done back in May when my girflriend was gone. I was not bad back then, and think may have gained a little respect, however it will mean nothing if I do not continue to contribute. The future may lie here.
All right. Enough for now, I am back to contributing regularly. If I do not, call me out, and I will get a message in my email inbox, reminding me. I will, of course, take responsibility. Onto a new phase.