I have never actually been out sarging, this is the closest i have been though.
Okay so I start out good, just got out of a relationship last Sunday, and I can’t remember my confidence being any higher! One of my friends is throwing a surprise party for a girl we are friends with, so we are around 50 people at a bar, a lot of girls who I know, but also a lot of girls I don’t know! So I’m thinking it is a good opportunity, I can show a lot of preselection, I figured with that and my confidence running high I could not fail!
Im starting with just getting some drinking done with all my afc friends, suddenly my other friends who is also on his journey of becoming a PUA is suddenly at the party, he pressures me into opening some sets because he knows I am a suffer of AA, but more on that later…
So the girl we are throwing the surprise party for have a hot friend HB 7.5 imo, I telling her to introduce me and so she does, she tells me that she lives on the country and I am joking around about how sucky it most be, a little bit of flirting but suddenly she has to go, don’t remember why, maybe just to quit the convo. I open some students and makes a joke about how their hat is the wrong color (in my country you get a hat when you become a student, and the color tells which education you finished) then don’t see it as a joke and gets really pissed at me, I hurry to get out of the convo, and opens a girl from Norway, she ask if she can take her shots to our table, 5 minutes later we have 4 beautiful girls at our table. Before I can even start talking to them, the students from before returns and starts giving me bullshit, wanting to know where I am educating so their boyfriends can track me down and kick my ass! After a 15 minutes debate, I finally make them in good mood and end things nicely with them..
Going back to my table when seeing a person I know is sitting and talking to the girls from Norway, (imo I got cockblocked by the students, because when I returned to the girls it was already to late, and I had lost them)
Me and my wing goes out to met some other PUA he knows who should be some of the best according to him. We meet them, and they give me some friendly advice about how I dress, and tells me that I look to young to go with them to the bars they are heading for, kinda hurts my confidence, though I know that was not the intention, but my young looks have always gone on my nerves, and even though it doesn’t affect my confidence as much as it use to, it still is something that I wish I could change…
Going back to the old bar, I see a girl who I have been attracted to, she got a thing going with a friend of mine, but I really want to close at this point and more then anything to close her. She goes to the same school as me, but I haven’t had the nerves to open her, before now, so my wing and I open and my wing start to talk to her friend, distracting her. Meanwhile I flirt with her almost immediately, she plants her hands on my shoulders and I move in closer, my friend comes by and I say to her “hey is it you who is my friends girl” (I know the answer already) she starts telling me how they don’t have a thing going they are just making out sometimes for fun, and it is okay to kiss with others (huge IOI from my point of view) so I say to her “so it would be okay for me to kiss you?” and then she starts looking around meanwhile she saying something like “weeelll I guess” at this point I should totally isolate her, for I know now that she was scared of people seeing me and her kiss.. I go for the kiss and she is turning her head away from me… FML! My wing is signaling me that I should isolate her immediately, and so I try.. I tell her that there is something outside the bar that I must show her, taking her hand and leading the way out of the bar, but just outside two friends of mine and her AND the friend she got something going with… and then it is to late, she goes inside again and so does I.
Later on that night I try to tell her that I haven’t shown her that thing yet, and she says “I don’t want to go, you are just going to kiss me..”. I can totally see know that when she went inside again is should have ignored her more, I came on to desperate and it fucked me up!
Some other girls were hitting on me that night, but I were to focused on the girl to do anything about it…
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