So I called her tonight. No answer. Texted her. She said she was done with me. Got her on the phone. Begged to see her. She hung up on me several times. I called again and again and again. Texted and texted and texted her! I don't know how and why I acted that way!
Anyway I realized that she blocked me on FB, IG, WA ... you name it!
I feel suicidal, not for what she did but for what I did. I'm so fucking embarassed. No one in my life had ever blocked me on anything! And yet I went full crazy and retard on this chick and...
I do feel terrible for you. In time, this will heal. Let this be a big learning experience. Also, you may need a small dose of xanax....sounds like some panic, too. Pretty common.
Take everything you've learned in this thread, and with this girl, and apply it to the next girl you like so you don't lose her. It does get better, but you have to realize you need to work on controlling your emotions.
Don't contact her again. Bang younger, hotter girls. I think the incident where you tried to stop her from leaving your place and called her a skank was the end. Sometimes, you can't go back. And it sounds like she may have another guy.