There's a reason I've developed "oneitis" for this one. She literally has every single thing I want in a girlfriend. And I mean that. Like I said I've been with women so I'm not a complete loser! Just a loser with this one cause I liked her so much that caused me to treat her diffetently!
I know that's what you want to believe OP, but the reason you developed oneitis is because you were prone to it. You just needed the 'right' incentive.
She's not special. Maybe she's a better match for you, sure, but like I said if you only found two of those in 15 that's not a society problem. It's a you problem.
I'm a fucking capricious bastard and believe me there's no shortage of amazing women out there. Yet if I were to spend the next 10 years in "high-end" clubs fucking various partygirls, chances are I won't come out of it with much of what I consider girlfriend material.
RC, I know what you're saying and believe me when I say I'm not a complete loser. I've been with women. Even now I have 2 younger and hotter women blowing up my phone asking to meet. I just give them bullshit excuses not to see them.
This particular girl I like is not a party girl, a big reason I like her. I don't go to clubs. I hate clubs in fact. I only meet women at work or through acquaintances.
My "oneitis" is not nearly as hot or as young as a lot of other girls I've had, and yet she's the only one I considered having a serious relationship with in 15 years.
A part of me is telling me to blow up her phone and beg to see her (and then escalate and I'm sure I can take her to bed within 2 hours) on the other hand I know that's not a good idea.
She hasn't responded to my aloof and not so from the heart apology text and she's probably right too.
Please let me know if there's anything I can do if she never contacts me. Should I ever try and contact her and how?