Stormy, if you ever come back to write more, I definitely gotta thank you for posting.
Dude, I'm in the same boat as you, except worse. I'm a newbie with women in every sense of the word and to boot, I also share your emotional problems, I also was abused as a child, and still can't shake depression after 13 years.
When I came across this post today, I was wanting to quit. I've started forcing myself out of my comfort zone, I met up with a random hobby group on the internet. I barely said anything to them the whole time, I introduced myself to a few of them and then hovered around social awkwardly and depressed until I decided to dip out early and go lie in fetal position and give up on ever become a social master and confident with women. I mean, if I'm too paralyzed to even talk to introverted people from the internet, how in the world am I going to deal with your average test from a woman?
But man, you have laid out some gold here. My mind is completely blown. I knew I had to start getting field experience to deal with my fear of social situations and get better with women, but you explained the inner part of it so well.
So much I've learned. Reaffirmed that I don't use kino at all, I gotta force myself to do that even during day game (I wonder if the claw works with day game), which is all I do, I hate night game (another hurdle I'll have to clear).
Totally hit the nail with the video game example. That's exactly how I am. I hate video games with no clear objective, it frustrates me, and I see how I've been thinking how I need to "work up to hot girls or work up to 2 or more sets" which is silly.
Also how you mention custom methods and how would I seduce a woman if everything was perfect, and I had to use no "tricks"? Gold. I realized thinking about it, that my whole method to approaching women is a trick. I had no idea what I would do, even if everything was perfect and I had no use no 'game". It took me 30 minutes just to come up with what I would do (the same thing you stripped down 'the game" to, opener, buying temp (kino), qualify (get rid of regrets), close).
Man, great stuff, can't wait until you drop more gems for us.